第三曲：等你就在这里

等你。就在这里
就算明天会刮起大风
等你是我能给的承诺
就算明天会下起雷雨
我会在这里冒着雨等你
我在街角等你
等你转到我这里
虽然知道你不一定拐这个湾
但是我会等你，就在这里
多少次我和你
我都只是静静的不知会你
怕我会坏了你的游戏
我说了等你，就在这里。。。

10/07/2007

后记：所以后来你没有拐了过来，我却坏了你的游戏。我game over了， 没有得回头了。昨天遇见你，可是我逃避了你，因为我怕你。。。 很想快点上完，然后放下你。。 容锌！加油！！

第二曲 ：思念你的雨季

下雨了吗？我的心病了，它感冒了
它被你的思念沾满了
当我们一天一天 一步一步的远离对方
你会不会在离开时
再回头看看一切开始的巴士站？
看看正坐在石椅上等待着你的那个我?
我有太多太多想对你说
我怕说了以后，一切都会改变
只怕对你的爱恋，只会变成你的包袱
到最后只怕想再偷偷喜欢你
都已经变得不再可能了
X ~ 我想你

08/07/2007

后记：看回这篇总觉得有点甜甜的，虽然我到了尽头可是它还是我人生的过程。。。 谢谢你让我思念过~

Reunion

Yup! As what I wrote on above, someone has came back from the far far away kingdom ( got to sit plane de neh!) - Australia... Guess who? haha, the famous cartoon from Japan! Ang ang ang .. Doraemon a.k.a Shinny! Think of asking him for lunch few days ago, but I dragged until today.. enough for those bla bla bla...

It was a tiring day, atleast for me it was... i would like to share how much journey I had undertake today, it seriously like a marathon of my life~

Well, well, well!! Altho it was tiring, I still manage to had lots of fun from it... It was like meeting back the secondary me, brainless n shameless... By standing beside with two of the gigantic maniacs, I had finally realise that ish ish ish .. IM A SHORTY, not counted in cm but a head or one and half head...ish .. no manners la both of you! Stand far away from me.... Shinny's part, he slimmed lots.. n more sensible with fashion compare to last time ( he made me look so not sensible...), still with his killing height... what else .. HE CHANGED LOTS... smoker!! He is fucking good with his sunshining tactics.. Loads of perfumes n others branded clothes... * Jealousy*... tho had a good time with him oso ..

Another exciting thing happened... I met something that had totally changed my mind set bout studying aboard... Emily , The evil or weirdo girl ? nah.. I can hardly recall... Well Emily... the english in her was functioning so fucking damn well... In a sentence, if i need to cancel off those sweet words, i think it would be left, I U WE THEY other else would be those *toot* & *tuuuuut*. Altho not much communication had carried out between me and her, coz we are kinda of disconnected all the time, she is energetic and daring... She would be a great friend if I can get closer to her.. but I think there is gaps between me n she.. A BIG one..

Here I share my driving journey of today ( 17 Dec 07):

Home ( everything started here) - TARC (English) - McDrive Tru(Filet-o-fishy) - Home ( took missed out assignment for Etta) - BHP(for petrol) - Air Itam ( for food) - TARC( drop Etta for her QS) - Shinny's House( where i first look at him after this while, he is old) - Gurney -TARC( which Im so clever to go back for Macro) - Shinny's House ( chit n chat) - Subaidah( Canai!) - Emily's house( few steps away from TARC) - Batu Ferringi( Night Market, gosh~ It rains) - 7-11 ( TARC nearby) - A few mistaken lorongs - Emily's House - Gurney( here I come agian) - Shinny's House( complete my job as a driver) - Home ( finally)

P/S : thanks for the billabong's pencil case...

-end-

tireness kills...

第一曲 ：思念着你的迷宫

静静的享用与你共同拥有的阳光
很高兴能够有一些和你共同拥有的东西
拥有了就像拥有了一切

在喧哗的街道
大声地说出对你的情感
我的告白就是让你听见的幸福

患上了缺乏幸福病的鱼，需要缺乏幸福的人来治疗
爱需要双倍的力量
你的躲迷藏却把我的力量都小心翼翼的偷走

可能播着你最讨厌的歌时
我却又一丝丝的回忆你的甜蜜

多个午后故意不小心得邂逅
让它变得是一个很有意义的途站
我会站着等待下一趟的巴士
期待邂逅再重演一遍

这一演就不要下画了，好吗？
你在我的迷宫里过得好吗？
我会努力的把你找出来
可以吗？让我爱昵好吗？
我好想你。。。

７／７／０７

后记：把以前写给你的东西都放上来，希望你会看到。。。　过了那么就，我还是放不下你。。。　答应自己，把写过的一篇，一篇放上来，放完的那天应该会是我放下你，展开翅膀飞的那天。。。

压抑

压抑- 利用强烈的手段来控制自己的情绪。。。

压力好像不只你有而已， 所以请你不要放大自己的; 同时也请尊重我的压力及排遣压力的方式。

知不知道当我面对压力时是需要支持及聆听而不是被人喋喋不休的一直碎碎念，告诉我，提醒我要做什么不要做什么。什么是应该什么是不应该，难不成十八岁的我不懂得分辨吗？怪到我家的马桶去。。。

最近很压抑自己了，一个星期内发生了好多的事要我怎么去面对？七天，一个小型活动必须在两天内解决，125 张票需要在一天内买光，可能吗？因为不可能所以只卖了半数多点，在加上行程紧迫所以活动并不是搞得很好。还被前任主席标榜为最差的活动之一。失望只还有两字就是失望咯。。。被顾问批得一分不值，那么厉害又不见你来做？少来放屁！！隔天还要测验咯。。。时间是被晃掉吗？

七天，两个测验，两个报告要交。。。因为没有时间，所以拜托了同学兼校内好友帮忙帮忙，没问题我是从来不相信。我能帮的我就尽力帮，可是总觉得东西一直往我这里推。说的话又好像有点不被重视，甚至被忽略。。。 人与人之间太多太多令人想不开的问题。所以我也不明白自己那天为什么遇到瓶颈就选择逃避。。。请原谅我的失控！ 对不起~

回到家却又想往外逃， 你要我怎么逃呢？测验都没读好，我想都死硬硬了。。。明天的，根本就读也不会，不读也是不会。。。算了吧~

想哭好多天了，甚至想崩溃。。。 可是我明白我是要坚强点，所以我不哭，也不能崩溃了！更不想逃避，越逃越痛苦。。。

快要参选主席了，收拾心情，打起精神~我真的必须加油了~突破瓶颈！ 拒绝悲伤，挑战困难！

深吸一口气。。。 海阔天空~