我讨厌三月不是没有理由的

第一，收了了自己不是很满意的成绩单。。。

第二，一直徘徊在矛盾和牛角里头。。。

第三，跟妈妈也闹了两次，算很多了，现在才月头。。。

第四，她不和我们一起去读书了。。。

第五，车被印度婆撞。。。

第六，有些事，一直放不下，很讨厌。。。

第七，最近都睡不好，不然就是怪梦缠身。。。

第八，昨晚知道了最不想知道的事情。。。

我讨厌三月不是没有理由的

笑自己

真正的愛情贏家，即使你們分開了，你還能一直住在他心裡。
真正的愛情贏家，是懂得在適當的時候放手，好好愛自己。

两个我都做不到， 笨吗？

答应我自己了，是时候画条线，把过去分割开来

矛盾

最近都一直在矛盾里，徘徊
最近都喜欢在牛角里，猛钻
最近都爱在绝头路里，撞墙

快乐吗？其实我不懂

总是有那种他快乐就好的念头

我会很难缠吗？我会很烦吗？

下一秒， 理智和行为不断的互相厮杀。。。

难道，就不能有一个

他很好，我也好的解决方法吗？

我整个人好沉重，可是我又不能抱怨，我明白我是自己拿来的， 我明白我既然选择了这样去对你，我就得面对接受，而且要照单全收。 不可以抱怨，因为我是自愿的。

我好矛盾

Judgment Day

Another few hours later, I am getting my result for my diploma Year 2 Semester 2. I frankly don't wanna face my result at all, like how I don't want to face the truth.

It is a judgment day for me

Yesterday night, be accurate - 28 February

I went clubs again, I went to 2 clubs at 1 shot... I'm kinda dead now

I don't know where am I heading to without a direction called you

I wanna reform back myself, it is so hard for me without you

I miss you

I Love The Sunshine, I Love You and I Learnt To Love My Life And Myself

(Malaysia, Penang 24,Feb) Lovely Sunshine, I woke up in the yipeedaboo mood to bath, clean up myself just to fetch someone that's mean a lot to my life, so far... Bring this meaningful person to work makes me so energetic.. hahah..

Being well prepared anytime, anyplace, any situation for the one you treasure the most...
Being there for him/she whether he/she needed you or not...

After settled down the meaningful one, I decided not to waste my precious morning as I lousily got chance to wake up this early, I ALWAYS MISS THE MORNING SUNSHINE!

I drove my car to service, as my baby servicing time is up, he needs some new oil in his stomach! Im so hyper until I changed a new pair of whipper for my baby, and the light bulb of his breaklight! I love you baby, Daddy always do! hahaha... tho Daddy bang you a few times...hahaha...

Then I bring my baby to have a nice bath... been a month since his last bath, and a century ago he got vacumm inside out! I'm such a bad daddy, but I still love you...

See, so many people serving my baby.. hahaha, he must be very charming just like his dad!

Baby kena molested... sigh~~

After I cleaned my babe, his stomach is almost empty and I decided to fill him with food, good one! The Caltex gold, with Techtron Techonology, hahaha... Being my baby, always have good food...

Well well well.. Baby is all set! Daddy is hungry~

Beside my baby foodstall, there was the usual Caltex MC.Donalds~ woohoo.. it is 10.54am, I rushed in to have my last minute, MC.Donalds Breakfast Meal! ♥~ I'm Loving it~ pala pap pap pla~

wohooo~ my lovely Sausage Mc.Muffin with Egg...

Here goes some talking pictures~

Qiang Qiang Qiang Qiang~ The Sausage MC. Muffin With Egg
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It is actual the transformer!!!



Transformed into Big Breakfast!!!


Muffin with Cheese~ Say Cheese :)


1st Slice of Egg...

Till the last peep of the egg


This reminds me of some maths stuff~ blurp~


I'm bored.. so I did this... 2nd piece of my hashbrown


Coffee.. Premium Roast... It taste sweet after 3 packets of sugar! It is tasteless n sucks big time


Finished, Glory Glory


Some cam whore session after breakfast! It is healthy!


Toilet cam whore session~


Bye! MC. Donalds

I feel like puking after having such a large portion of breakfast!

Below are some of my recent favorite photos~







Which one is better?
deciding to put it on my profiles primary picture... I'm in dillema

P/s : people out there who reading this, writing a post is not that easy...
DO YOUR PART! COMMENT AFTER READ
or u leave silently

sigh~ I just exposed myself to kidnappers...

黑暗里，我真得什么也抓不着

这回，我真得很不懂。。。

你曾经所谓我爱你，你已经换了一个对象来说。我真得好痛好痛。 你说过失去我以后，你不会那么快谈恋爱，甚至不想爱了。

我伤疤的血还留得很汹涌，你却不在意了。好像我根本没有出现在你生命中，我什么都留不下，什么都带不走。

原本我以为我可以很大方。我抱着什么的心态跟你去旅行，相信你很清楚。 坦白说，我真得有开心到，可是我真的也把盐撒在自己的伤口上。很多次你的动作都让我想起曾经的我们，再看回当下的我，那把刀又在狠狠的划过我的心。

你一直闹着说，闷，想早点回。我也答应了，答应得好痛。为什么事情会是这样的呢？我当然很开心最后你告诉我，我们三天两夜才回吧。

那晚，坐在Starbuck你把话说了出来。你不值得我爱了，我很理智的告诉我自己把你化作回忆，再埋起来以后都不要再想起跟你的过去。那一整夜，我的心悬挂着一只大象。。。我睡不到，看着你一整夜。觉得你好为难，好痛苦，你爱上了他，却不想在伤害我也不想伤害你现在的他。我替你辛苦。。。

我想家了，我离开以后，你不必为难，他不必担心。。。那才是好的。

睁开眼，看见你脸带微笑的在信息他。。。我装着看不见，把眼睛闭上。你却要偏偏要把我弄醒，再到外头打电话。我真得呆不下去，完全没有办法，我真得好痛，你懂吗？这会不想再跟你讨论什么回不回的事，让我自私点。不想卡着你的人生。

人家说：“爱一个人，最希望就是要看见他快乐” 可是，看见你的快乐，我的伤口更是赤裸裸的让我无法言喻。

我把酒店的钥匙，丢在酒店的箱子里。 我把我的心，我们的回忆，一点都不想带回。。。就让它们永远的留在那个寒冷的远方。 可是为什么，你却把另一个带回来给我，硬是要我记得？我把它丢了，为什么你又要把它捡回来还给我，还给一个什么都不在想要的我？

六小时的归途，漫长的六小时。。。 我真得好怕好怕一个人，那种寂寞和孤独拼命的侵蚀被你掏空的心。我坐了六小时的时光机，不断被我们从认识到现在的片段伤害，很无情的把我割的血肉模糊。那些片段，都是自动播放的，没有停止键。我很想停，却又没有办法控制。只好任由宰割，让自己死在回忆中。

我拼命灌输自己不再爱你的精神，欺骗自己。我又失败了，为什么到这一刻我还是要爱着你，任由你来无心伤害我？我问我自己，我会原谅你吗？我的答案非常可笑，我甚至没有怪你，我怪我自己不够好，没有办法留住你的爱。我讨厌我自己。。。一直问，不断地问，为什么我不是最后得到你所有爱的那个？

我比你还要怕我爱你这三个字。。。

我不明白，你把手伸出来的时候是什么意思。。。
我不明白，你拥抱我的时候是什么意思。。。
我不明白，你眼睛红红的时候是什么意思。。。
我不明白，你在唱"Fall For You" 时是什么意思。。。

我不敢去明白，不去想，怕最后还是我一厢情愿的想法。。。

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you's impossible to find
You're impossible to find

黑暗里，我什么都抓不着。。。 我还爱着你，爱着伤害了我的你，爱着你的所有。。。

因为我没有办法恨你，恨一个自己心爱的人是一件很痛苦的事情，我既不能拥有你，更没有办法彻彻底底的解决你，搞到我自己不上不下，到最后我很讨厌我自己。

我也没有办法回头，前方更没有路让我走下去。。。
可是我必须要硬装坚强。

我爱你，祝愿你开心幸福

风干你的影子

昨天跟妈妈闹了点脾气
觉得很郁闷
为什么没有人能了解我的心情？
为什么这种时候还要来挑起火？

回家的路上，真得有很想很想你
一路上
好多我们的影子
不断的谋杀我
我哭了

边哭边驾车
吓到了旁边的摩托骑士
我还一边在车骂
“Fucker! Stop Crying!"

回到家
含泪泊车
真得很厉害
过后，真的在车哭了一大场

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明天要跟你去云顶玩
身分不一样了

昨晚发了一场梦
说你最后一分钟跟我说你不去了
吓到自己乱七八糟

明天我们应该会没事的
好好地去玩
我不想想太多

虽然有时候还是会有点痛
可是我会好好的

用一段感情，换了一个朋友
应该还是值得的

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把你的影子加点盐
腌起来
风干

老时候
下酒

by 夏宇

我会记得你，我想我会想念你
我知道以朋友的身份
我可以爱你更多
拥有你更久

包装 Wrapping

我可以用友情来包装我的爱情吗？
Can I use friendship to wrapped up our relationship?

我可以用失忆来包装我的回忆吗？
Can I use memory lost to wrapped up my memory?

我可以用忽视来包装我的在乎吗？
Can I use ignorance to wrapped up my cares?

我可以用快乐来包装我的悲伤吗？
Can I use happiness to wrapped up my sadness?

我可以用冷淡来包装我的热情吗？
Can I use cool to wrapped up my passion?

我可以用花心来包装我的专一吗?
Can I use unfaithful to wrapped up loyalty?

我可以用谎言来包装我的诚实吗?
Can I use lies to wrapped up my honesty?

我可以用笑容来包装我的眼泪吗？
Can I use smiles to wrapped up my tears?

我可以用不爱你来包装我爱你吗？
Can I use not to love you to wrapped up I LOVE YOU?

Somebody's Me

I took it off, I know you dun like to see it around my neck

I put it on, the shirt that you said you love to see it on me

I wear it, the shorts you gave it to me as a present

I still treasure your sweetness

I walk with bare heart to your house

I ate nothing, I know you wants me to accompany you to have your supper

I know, you always felt eating together is always better than eating alone

I was there waiting for you

I longing to see you that night

I dropped my tears that you once said I should not be alone

I remember last week, how sweet we are when you sick

I drench in tears when you refused to see me

I know there would be a day, my heart would miss you this hard

I seeing everywhere fully with you shadow

I can barely take a step

然后

有些事情，不是说我要，那我就一定能得到
你说变了，我没能很好的反驳

滑稽

我真的反应不来
我输了，每次都是一样的

就是没有什么原因
排行榜又有新的排名

接下来
日子还是要过
该面对的
我还是要面对

然后又怎样？

Traveling Mood

Can Anyone Help to Ease My Traveling Mood?
I am so looking forward to travel
near or distance
whatever!
I just need to move my ass into a trip

I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL I NEED TO TRAVEL

but due to some circumstances
as a considerate person
I did not get to go any place this holiday

Last but not least, I'M DYING FOR A TRIP TO ANYPLACE

=What a relief=

Where Is My Mood Of Celebration?

The air is definitely fresher for me now, I can have a comma on my exam... for Chinese New Year!
4 papers had been examined, I probably got 3 of them set in the border line. Personally think that, they will FLUNG me away. Damn it!

Chinese New Year is really approaching, tomorrow is the last day of the year and I got to go back to the 'haunted' house. People there are really spooky, and trust me, you won't want to see them a second more if you can avoid.

If Im a magician, they are all flies by now

But hell, I'm going to stay about 3 days over there... I sincerely hopes that there would be no fight in this 3 days, or else make it the loudest one.. I would enjoy it much

I personally thinks that I'm growing older and had lost some of my celebration mood on those festive seasons. I admit I am not a family guy, somehow, I hate them... I prefer where I am, and do not wish to make any changes on this point.

As I getting older, life getting complicated. I need to have shoulder to bare with responsibility, I need to open up my eyes, to see the hard truth, I got to use my hands to make things right, I got to depends on my legs to walk on the right path of my life...

I am missing fire crackers... I really do....

sigh... my CNY post is kinda of emo...

So Called Fucking

I so fuck up with my nerdy hair now... I need a fucking nice hair cut by now!

I so fuck up with my study now... I need a fucking nice hang out by now!

I'm so fucking bored, so I'm typing this fucking post to release my fucking emotion!

...ooo..

real damn fuck!

For the sake of fucking sorry, the fucking exam is fucking near and I'm fucking tension and under fucking exam phobia as well as the fucking stress!

FUCK ME!

Is Robbery A New Way Of Survive?

Dear Robbers,

There was a day, today. I am in a very super good mood, I believe today would be one of the brightest day of my life. I woke up with a smile on my face, I sing so loud in car when I drive to college, I jokes with my classmates, I sing so loud again on the way home, I take sweet nap in the afternoon.

Later in the evening, I went swimming with my friend, what a lovely day, I have fun with the jacuzzi.. Those bubbles make me so high *blush* ... While I am having fun with the water, the weather become windy, and rain like cats and dogs.. *meows and barks*.. and I like getting even higher playing in the pool, with a brave on my chest, I will bear the lighting if it strikes on me! wooohooo...

After those fun time, I am hungry as well as my lovely friend. We decided to go fun a nice dinner at the white cloud mountain famous western food, well.. not really satisfied with the food, as the qualities is worth a *sigh* now a days. Yet, I am still having lots of fun eating with my friend which I talk lots of nonsense... After the dinner, we decided to go to beach to have a little relaxing walk.

We are there, the Seawind aka the belakang of the Naza Hotel. It is the 1st time we pay our visit there. We have the nice breeze over there, quite clean and soft sand, with lots of nice seashells. Here, we took out our W810i handphone to use it as torch and helps us to seeks for nice and beautiful seashells, and avoids stepping on sharp stuffs. There are 4 Malay guys fishing there, 2 China ladies walking as well as 2 Malaysian Chinese, seeking for seashells. The enviroment is so peaceful yet so enjoyable.

The 2 Malaysian Chinese is joking,

Guy: Later if there is a robber wants to rob us two,
we throw him into the water and rob him back!
Girl: Hahaha! You so 'Jek Ak'

On the way walk back to where we come from, there are another bunch of Malay kids at the age of 16 - 17, there are 4 of them in count walk pass the 2 Malaysina Chinese, the guy gave a friendly smile to them as they all are Malaysian.

The 2 Malaysian Chinese is joking again,

Girl: Belakang de China po, gone case ad lo...
Guy: haha.. They very happy one la..

SUDDENLY, the 4 Malay Kids turn back, and walk very fast toward the 2 Malaysian Chinese, they both realized that and walk faster...

OUT OF ANOTHER SUDDEN, two of the Malay Kids grabbed the Malaysian Chinese guy's hand and pulled him aside, said that they got things to discuss with him. Anyone with brains would have sure said NO!!! and of course he said so! Another Malay Kids came front and push the him so hard for a few times, while another of the gang is screaming non sense, maybe he is the cheerleader in the gang.

The cellphone on the guy's hand is losing.. it is the guy turn 17's birthday present! He heart it damn lots and much. There is too much pulling and pushing, the guy's finger is wounded by the two Malays Kids, his cheek and lock bone is so much pain because of another one who keep on pushing him so damn hard! 4 VS 1, they guy gave up his cellphone with all his unwillingness... He felt so sorry to his cellphone, he never think of changing a new one, until the moment they robbed it away. Till now, the guy still missing his W810i so damn much, and found that there are no substitution that can perform as nice as his lost and others can't satisfied him as how his lost did. He really misses him till this moment.

Nobody comes to help, during the hell process, the girl did scream and ask for help! DANG! people are getting a colder heart, no one cares! The 4 fishing Malays don't care, the diners at Seawind don't give a damn...

There are some lines that I wanna make, and it seriously awful to be made by a Malaysian like me.

Those who never eat pork, ain't you people have all the sponsors form government? Ain't you people are proud as the Prince of The Land? Ain't the government have the Dasar Economy Baru to helps you people?

You people are parasiting in the society, what you people know is about hak-hak istimewa, without it, you people will never able to survive on your own! EVENTHOUGH YOU PEOPLE ARE HAVE THOSE SPECIAL HAK, ELSE IS ROBBERY A NEW WAY OF SURVIVING FOR YOU PEOPLE? You make us looks so damn down on you!

The 4 who robbed my handphone, here is my words for you and I am serious with it.

You four, with the brave crafted on ur chest,
those who touched me, will have their hand rotten.
The 4, you all will have cancer or aids or both in the near future,
Even you all didn't get the karma in near future,
I curse your future is blinded,
have baby boy without birdy ,
have baby girl without pussy,
your elderly life is full of tragic!
Thank You For Taking My Phone,
You guys pay back 10000X in the future!

Sigh off, with love

Hory

p/s : not all Malays are bad, there are good ones out there, so don't mogok!

Here We Welcome 2009

2008 had just past
2009 is here for the 1st day

What have I done on the so called meaning full moment of crossing over?

YEAH~ I'm in Club again

Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~Dance~ Dance~

This time is even better than X'mas Eve.. atleast the music is far better! too bad that Dandor is not there.. I'm having much fun meeting up people.. haha, tho I can't really remember all of them.

HERE A LOUD GOODBYE TO MY 2008
&
HELLO 2009!!

Muacks~