Missing You

如果你还在，我会挽着你的手，陪你度过每个朝夕。

如果你还在，我会夹菜给你吃，每一顿都给你盛饭。

如果你还在，我会陪你说说话，听听你的说说我的。

如果你还在，我会给你打电话，要你接送我的时候。

如果你还在，我会陪你看电视，然后一起讨论剧情。

如果你还在，我会陪你每周末，一起去广场吃走看。

如果你还在，我会在没有钱时，唯唯诺诺的跟你要。

如果你还在，我会害怕给你看，我不很漂亮的成绩。

如果你还在，我鼓励你的一切，你也鼓励我的一切。

如果你还在，我还有许许多多，你也还有许许多多。

如果你还在，我依然被爱护着，你依然是欣慰开心。

只可惜你已不再，我错过了许多。

大家都安好，切勿担心。

我好想好想好想好想你。

你是一个巨人，一个坚强的巨人，一个对爱无私的巨人。一个在离开后把力量都留给我的巨人。

If I weren't me

见过了心中偶像。

听见了心碎吻痕。

唱出了心中的歌。

吸入填补的云雾。

呼出悲伤的朦烟。

烟酒狂欢了一夜。

没有雪的国度里。

没有老人与雪橇。

这一个平安夜，我一直重复的想一件事。

若我非我，那会是个怎样的故事？

如果许愿是可以实现的，我告诉流星把我的灵魂留下。

如果我再长高些，如果我瘦点，壮点，身材好点。。。

如果我真的长得一点也不像我，而是一个比现在的我好看百倍的我。。。

如果我真的长得一点也不像我，我还会受伤害吗？

如果我真的长得一点也不像我，我有权力做选择吗？

如果我真的长得一点也不像我，我做的每件事是否会有更好的效果？

如果我真的长得一点也不像我，我会因为自己的长相而被嫌弃唾骂吗？

如果我真的长得一点也不像我，我现在所有的烦恼会不再是烦恼吗？

当我有了这种的想法，我不自禁的讨厌镜子里的那个人。因为他改变不了这个自己。

我因为自己而变得异常的没有自信。总会想到的是，我不要，不可以，不能，不会。。。因为我是我。我渐渐的不懂得如何跟自己相处，我排挤自己，很在乎别人的眼光，朋友的举动。害怕的是因为自己而让别人讨厌自己。 自己渐渐的自我区隔，渐渐的发现自己跟原本的圈子已有了厚厚的隔阂，一举一动我都小心奕奕。我好讨厌自己，这样的累坏了自己。

如果今天的我一点也不是我，你是否会更愿意认识我？

这样的我，只有自卑无助地讨厌自己，说真的我也渐渐的不再确定自己。

平安夜

Dear Santa,

If you were real, please smooth my heart.

I don't need another toy with torn to hurt me.

or if you may, took away the old toy that been clinging around my heart. It hurts me enough.

I don't mean to be overwhelm by emotions, but I find no way to cheers.

Dear Dad

最近好吗？好久没有那么真实的接近你。那么亲爱，那么温暖的你。见到你之后，感触深深的萦绕，尤其是用那种方式才能见到的你。那点唏嘘，让我很介怀，很惆怅。

无法忘怀，你对我投射的陌生眼神。

无法忘怀，那个你出现的陌生国度，阶梯，庙宇，神殿，还有飞船。

无法忘怀，我会再次失去陌生的你。

我寻觅了这个惆怅的国度，期盼与你短暂的相处。

你可知道我有多想你。

再遇见你的时候，你让我有了很温暖很熟悉的亲密感。

坐在你身旁，你没有回应我。

你默默地像个小孩的努力学着写字。

莫名的情绪涌入眼眶，你总是那么的熟悉，那么的重要。

因为你把力量寄托于我。

快要破晓时，努力写字的你，转身对我笑了，然后递了你写的字赠予我。

一个像傷，却也像偈。

我努力的想了好久，都无法确定你想要告诉我的那个字。

然而我再努力想你，醒后，我还是无法在见你一面，哪怕是奢侈的一瞥。

久违而亲爱的你，是否会在无形中给予我勇气，带领我到达梦想？

Mistake

其实我不想要这样。

其实我很多话都没有说，我只会笑，只会说无所谓，都可以。你却不知道我的致命伤。

我讨厌自己的懦弱与不坚定。

自己做错了许多。也让别人有机会让自己受伤。不怪别人。

如果我当这是一场梦，这会是一场噩梦。

让我惊醒的噩梦。

然后我好像受伤了。

静静的疗伤就好。

晚安了，不想记得你 18 号。

Replay

这种时间想吃冰淇淋，是不是需要慰藉自己的借口？想你

我不知道发生了什么事。

我没有失忆，为什么有种记忆从很微妙脑容量里抽出来倒带。

自残是这样的吗？

Hey, It's me! The one you trying to forget.

记得要忘记。

沙堡

From A-Z I can tell you as many as I can with all the vocab I wish to share.

Life right now is so different, we're very similar when we are younger but as life moving on, I think it is ok for us to grow on different branches as I know we are still in the same roots . For those moments we embracing each other to grow by fulfilling the life with colours to paint on face, I am lucky to have you with me all the way back then till now.

For all the lies I had lied, I only come clean to you, cause deep down I know honesty is what I had devoted to us. Those supportive times we holding each other's painful spot and kick out ass to move on, it is so grateful to have someone to know my soul and read my mind. It is always you, the one I can count on, the one I dare to dare my soul to. The one I seek advice and the one I try to hold on so damn fucking tight not to let you fall. To gross you out, I always wish to kiss ur tears on your cheeks. It gross me out too. LOL

Ain't you think social networking is like building sandcastle by the shore? The moment you had your beautiful castle, you have to watch it being wash away. Then you build another one, some same sands from the old one, some are newly washed up to the shore. Upon you finishing it, there comes a fat dude stomps over, you are cursing it so hard but you still have to build it up again. Life never freeze a moment till the day we are done with the sandcastle, even it has gone.

You are always the little diamond I will put it back on the tallest tower of my castle.

未来？

When you are a kid, you wished so hard to be a man.

When you are a man, you wish so much to be a kid.

When you are a guy, you wish you know where to head.

The sun still rise, the day still go by. I stood and stare at myself, asking who am I? One step forward, there will be a whole new life, whole new experience in life to be needed to adapt, I have no option to step backward. Phases in life is like taking a small leap that keep on improving for the life I have been knowing so well, having the courage in heart to shield myself, knowing that I will meet some cute people along the way, peers that not yet know but ready to support my life like fireworks that paint the sky.

Unlike before, this leap I am going to take is like jump off an aeroplane with parachute carried, of course. Well, seems like I'm pretty safe right? When you are watching on the ground, you won't feel the fear. I can't precisely navigate where am I going to land, I can't safely step on ground if my parachute turns out to be a junk. I'm not feeling secure in between the plane and the ground, which makes me holds on to nothing.

Oh gross, by just trying to figure about it, headache strikes!

I will have mine!

Dirty Water

生命是一滩浑水。当我们看不清别人思维，我们会故意的模糊自己的灵魂。

一件事，让我对自己又在不断的衡量。很爱以自己的一把尺，往别人的身上度量，然后画勾打叉。做朋友的再错再不对也好，离开饭桌就不要为了帐单的几分钱算死一辈子的死草。对于身边真正在乎的人，我不是会变身的正义使者（。。。不然你死很久了），但我能做的事在他们被伤害时让他们好过点。如果安慰无法凑效，我丝毫不介意伤害，不害怕自己承担不起，即使会得到一句可笑的后果自负。

如果你问我，你这样做是图个什么？我诚实的答你，同理心。倘若有天我不幸了，那是否会有人同样的对待我？

倘若你今天觉得我做错了，你就说我错了吧。按着良心跟我笑，太委屈了。

身边有几个是你看清的？身边又有几个你摸不透的？那你是否有那种明明很清楚，却到头来什么都是最不懂的那个？

为何身边的人总会让你触碰他们的心底，到最后告知那是脚底。

It's A Liver Game

肝，我对不起您。。。

跟您玩了那么刺激性的游戏，是我不好。没有好好的照顾您。

答应您，过了这个人生转折点，我会对您有所负责。

所以也请您不要爆，再给我多几个夜晚，我保证。。。

Gecko Love

特别报道－我的胆儿于凌晨爆裂。

谢谢那可爱会跳的壁虎，跳上了我滑溜溜但是带点毛的手。

这是猫，不是那只会跳的壁虎。

最近肥了好多，而且那些肥油都很坚强。

所以当我感受胆儿爆裂的那一刻，

我的表情，动作。。。

其实跟那猫没有差多少。

小小声说：我喊了好大一声，手上的鸡皮疙瘩还没有退！

53 Years Of Independence

I have a tag with my name.

With it, you know I'm me,

Without it, I'm still me.

53rd Independence, We shall leave our tag behind and have a smiley on everybody.

Silently Secretly Dearly

第一次孤独的对着颇大的荧幕，忽略身边的陌生人。

很努力的感受气氛，被电影吸纳。

原来，一个人可以很专心的看电影。

一场梦，如果我能在你脑海里种下一个有我的未来，那我算不算欺骗了爱情？

听说所谓曾经回来了，

预言里，我说了晚安就好，真的不想再死在个会亮灯的窗户。

但愿我是个拥有自己灵魂的人

好让未来赞赏

虽然话说的那么好听，却又种歇斯底里的感觉。

拼了命的想要遇见，

却不懂要遇见的事什么。

那种盲目会让自己迷了路。

我害怕的事情很简单。

我可以寂寞，别让我觉得太寂寞。

然后由寂寞带来了孤单，不难应付。

只是别让我这孤单太可怕。其实我会想你们，在你们很忙的时候。

我默默地想念。

You Had Defined Lonely For Me

我不是个好的孩子，我更不会是个好的亲人。

二舅很寂寞的离开了。在医院，我看见了寂寞。 我想着他离开的前一刻，什么样的景色眏入眼帘，他看见了什么？ 他应该看见了孤单，痛苦与寂寞。 没有任何人懂他一个人承受的痛楚，他寂寞的闭上眼。没有妻女，子嫡在身边，没有兄弟姐妹陪伴，他是我对寂寞的解读。

我和二舅并没有感情可言，印象中都是大人们对他的抱怨。我对他怀念仅仅是停留在当年在我略懂事的时候抱着我拍了一张照片而已。我对他一直很习惯的忽略，一直忽略。。。有时甚至忘了我身边真的有个可以叫二舅的人。

有时候一些人的存在，我们都习以为常的认为那是理所当然的，而忽略了他们。当他们寂寞的离开后，我们却被千丝万缕的情绪抽痛着我们那仅有的回忆。

我无法谅解，大人们在他离开后的作出的某行为。大家在各自的生活圈子里，各自好好的扮演自己的角色，没有人是对的，没有人是绝对错的。有的人能有大条理由，有的人只能默默地活着。一家人，本是同一个阶梯，到后来却要大家臣服于你的威严。只有我做不到。

长大了，跟身边的人都疏远了，斟酌我们的一言一语。说太少会被误会，说太多会被讨厌，那到底最亲的你是否让我觉得最不熟悉？ 坦白带来宽容却伤害，伤害让我们不再坦白；隐瞒的初衷是不想伤害，到最后却最伤害。

我告诉自己很抱歉，让自己被看贬了。无法规循已安排的道路，破坏了国王游戏，只是我要建立自己的国土。我还在半途，持续打击看贬让我走的更踏实，即使跌倒了，我会骄傲。我知道我不做坏事，就是对的事。

有天，我会听见我的努力被赞扬。

I Would Love Wandering With You

流浪。

总有一天，我会拎起自己的背包去流浪。世界很大，渺小的我要用我的脚印在一个不属于自己的陌生地带。哪怕是一个渺小得地图无法记载的小地方，哪怕世界地图会是我相册的目录。我就是任性要流浪。

这个梦想。我认为我可以做到。

其实，我们在呼吸的每个片刻不也真真实实地在地球实践着生命的流浪。没有人知道终点，我们连提示都没有的在生命里流浪。挥撒着不安与焦虑，同时紧握希望与期盼。没有人知道前方的路会都康庄或蜿蜒，我穿着帆布鞋用生命来感受呼吸的快感。在陌生的国土，奔跑。

风，会把我的带到更多我意想不到的国度。它抚过我的发丝，带回我对家乡的思念。它轻抚我的脸庞，告诉我下一个停留的国度。我的人生，能错过多少事情？能后悔几次？我能做的只是拼命的跑，一直跑，逆着风也要很疯狂的跑，不在乎被吹乱的头发，追着自己想要看见的风景。幻想着我与梦想接触的瞬间，那微妙的联系让我的生命鼓胀得灿烂炸开。为自己盛开。

我要到一个大家都长得跟我不太一样的地方，学习他们简单的对话单词。吃着自己没有吃过的食物，好不好吃？不重要。不管我的绘画是好是烂的，我坚持给自己在停留的时间里画一幅画，带回或留下。 我带着有点复古的相机，透过小小的框框，我看见更辽阔的世界。不在意写实与否。任何我认为精彩的我都要看见，记得然后老时，用我限有的记忆力不断，不断，不断地回忆。

每一个不同的城市，我会寄三张明信片。第一张，给家人，给与分享，给与安心。第二张，给自己，给与回忆，给与生命。 第三张，给与朋友，给与参与，给与感触。

最后一个学期！

It is so jam and I'm gonna die!!!!

I seriously hate the traffic jam, and caused me late for the first day of the semester.

Poor Sharks

饮胜文化。

昨天去了一个不认识任何人的婚宴，除了身边的妈妈。入座如常的乱，上菜如常的迟，场面如常的冷。想起小时候，老师都很爱出作文。以婚宴为题的文章，免不了都是那三点，外加大家的吃相。总之，猛劁那些华人的陋习，然后以自己族群的短处，让教师给你高高的分数。

其实我并不爱去筹热闹，会有一种不自在，很烦躁地想要脱离那个场地。脱离不了，只好默默地不断信息身边的朋友贪图一些抽离的快感。人啊，越是身处热闹的场地，越显现出寂寞的个体，却不愿意融入。

台上的人快乐歌唱，新人快乐的结婚，来宾快乐的解馋。下次饮胜时记得大大声，长长气的给人家祝福。

对了，我在吃鱼翅汤羹时，想起了那些可爱的鲨鱼们。本来说想要拒吃那碗小小的鱼翅汤羹，后来再想深一层，那些可怜的鲨鱼们都壮烈牺牲了，如果不吃的话就会让可怜的它们白白的壮烈牺牲，死了都没有价值。拒吃并不会帮助到那些已被割下鱼翅的可爱鲨鱼们，所以我们最基本开始从菜单里把鱼翅汤羹删除吧！

人们啊，能不能别鲨鱼翅出现在婚宴里？心酸啊~

酷

Net hopping at 3a.m. seems like already a habit that root deep inside me.

Life been treating me well, tho it added in some spices along with this few months like my eyes, my great flu and my ankle. They all come lining up to visit me from April till yesterday but I think I had been too sunshine about my life. I just see those troubles as a little dust that I just have to wipe off and that's all.

Life best staying simple like this. I don't mind running alone, as long as the wind in treating me right, the sun is shining me warm and the scenes around me is cheering for me.

I think I'm Cooler than ever...

Save me from assignment, Save Mother-Nature.
Where's the love as cards promised me?

Nalulumbay

I'm depressed.

Who give a damn to the phone calls? I just don't feel like picking up, my things are shattered like a puzzle, and worst part is I have two of them mixed up together. Who cares?

I'm depressed.

Who give a damn to the listeners? The talker is talking to the dumb water, idiot tree holes, lousy caves, as the recanting make every syllabus of the words fight back. Who cares?

I'm depressed.

Who give a damn to the truth? As we are blindfolded, we walk on a folk. Three way up, another three way down. Up on sharp, you died a hole; down on slope, you died a silent note. Who cares?

I'm depressed.

Who give a damn to the lie? When the snowballs rolls, we are meant to be dead. One down, because another arise, yet to be drowned down to hell. Who would, if we deja-vu. Who would, if we are not educated that lie save life. Who cares?

I'm depressed.

Who give a damn to the love? When lust the ultimate form of love, it comes before love. Half of heart, half of hurt, we are player, we are saint. It is just a imaginary world. Gossip, cruel-some, betrayal, cheating is all part of the game. Who cares?

I'm depressed.

Who give a damn to the mood? When the music flows through your heart, it leaves mark. Either burn or bliss. I never get to say enough, to be said to you, the music hunted me down on the way chasing pavements. Who cares?

I'm depressed.

Who give a damn to the me? As I is a singular, indication for the loner, presenting one and only one. Great friends are complimentary, true heart to be dig out as bone and meant to be eat by the dogs. Who cares?

娘亲

It is always easier to say I love you to someone else than your family.

It is always easier to say I love you when you don't meant it at all.

I have been trying to say I love you to this women that technically created me with a man. I at least try it once a year, but so far I have not succeeded once. I'm still striving it.

Knowing that I have difficulty deliver it verbally, I'm still showing my gratitude in action.

Well, it involves my currency all the time.

It is her birthday, I couldn't do much. Buying her a dinner at cozy place is what I can afford in current. I bet she is happy. =)

I have not much to offer, but sometimes I will throw my temper and my unique attitude which I endowed from her to my dearest mum. Right? She is my creator.

Not much to say but I love you, still in action or in some place that she could never read it.

P/s : my mum have the same problems as me XD

都叫你不要kap我冲凉！

I have Big Small Eyes.. GREAT!

According to the professional doctor, he said that my very beautiful eye's lashed having problem to grow out, and stayed inside caused me infected by bacteria... Wonderful =)

I kanasai punya bo balance with it!

o.O

Options

有时候，人生并不迷茫。迷茫的是我们在无法预测未来，猜疑自己脚下的每一步是否踏得正确，扎实。

看了塔罗牌，几38的一个大男人去看所谓的未来。其实不太明白，虽然说不是样样都说对了，可是有的事情真的就连细节也说得很清楚。后来才明白，被看穿其实并不是我喜欢的感觉。

就像显微镜在你身上发现了无数的细菌。无地自容，却又是事实。

矛盾的认为，不计划太多反而是否能够勇敢的踏出每一天。现在被那些话左右着自己，好的左顾右盼的期待它来，不好的却在计算它的到来然后提心吊胆的尽量想避开。整个活得好窝囊。

说回来，不好的听过也没有太计较，虽然有点在意，好的却听得很爽！听说六月爱情来了，可是我自己是否真的那么期盼爱情呢？事业学业都被说得很好，是很值得开心的事，可是我却得离开槟城到国外去，最好还是一去不回头的那种。 选择，选择，选择，到最后怎样还是回到自己的手中，不是吗？每一天都有自己在打算，日子怎么过，决定的权利还是在手里。

不管怎样，让我有勇气做出让自己肯承担的选择。

I Carry A Key, I Run With Only Them With Me

恼人的报告， 以完美的开头，烂尾的结束了。
21岁了，没什么愿望并且感谢上天没有实现我说的鸟话， 庇佑！
没有太大的期盼能够很好的庆祝，反正也不太肯定自己能不能早点交死人报告。

几个星期没有好好的睡， 睡前想着明天的该做的，再为今天没做到的懊恼， 然后睡着。
睡醒了，第一个念头 - 幹!又要赶了。 等到我开了电脑，Facebook 很多下，msn 一下，看blog一下，找书一下，加起来就很多很多下了。 等到我的mood差不多来了的时候，肚子也刚好饿了，所以只好出去吃东西多几下。吃饱回来，所有的事情再循环一轮，所以有时候一天能500字已经很厉害了。

反正交了就算了，等成绩差不多飞回来的时候才来煎熬一轮。

交待一点点生日礼物来“好脸”一下。
只能说很多Facebook的Happy Birthday咯，害我前一天还担心会不会空空没有人管我，结果爽到我~ 几乎每十分钟就有3个祝福，爽到爆炸 ^^

那个半夜拖我上车的美女，硬硬的压我的头在杯子上的人。

很大力的打了Enson的头，因为他咬我当生日礼物。打他是因为本能反应，也因为是本能反应所以十分客气大大力的打！

很爽也是很惨的，在懊恼说生日没有蛋糕也算了，在21岁生日没有蛋糕，不觉得很烂的啊？所以咯，Cherry, Looi, Enson, Torty, Cindy, Andy躲在车后面的时候，我真的没有看到，可是嘴巴就是说看到了，然后滴了两滴被吓出来的冷汗。蛋糕小粒到丢脸。。。

Laze 在我窗口画的，Happy Birthday 还有send去我电话的Happy Birthday! old man 也是几艺术下。

还有两条陪我喝很多酒的粉肠。

谢谢一堆人送的电笔包包，至少省得被某人嫌丑。

有一种朋友是可以开口说你要什么的，有一种朋友是可以跟你讨礼物，而你会很爽的付钱。 有一种朋友在选礼物给你的时候因为选不到而打电话给你轮你粗口的，你会笑。因为你的朋友很真的对你，不在乎那种过分华丽的惊喜。

我有的是那些会偷听我说话的朋友然后光明正大的买礼物给我的朋友。

生命中，有几个人能真正的陪伴你的快乐喜悦？ 那是否除于二或更多，过后说剩下来的是能陪伴你分享郁闷悲伤低潮的呢？

谢谢哥。陪伴成长的哥哥。

感谢那些信息，msn , facebook 的有心人。

二十一年没有白活。

Kidult

第21个
生日快乐

Checkmate Your Love

女孩，十多岁，爱情是雪白的白纸。
男孩，十几岁，爱情是毫无目的的射标。
相爱了，定下了纯洁但是没有结尾的誓言。
爱情不过如此，没了还能再来。

二十出头，彼此手里握着checklist, 一副监考官的模样。
彼此在钩钩叉叉的，少一项都不可以。
爱情不过是wish list 里不可缺一的条件。
请你钩上眼泪。

三十出头，手里握着对方递给的checklist, 忙着的填调查问卷。
彼此看看哪几项是符合的, 背景薪水给填个满意的答案。
爱情不过不要太挑剔，还是会发生的。
不过请你填好你的性能力。

四十出头，checklist依然递给对方。
填上基本的个人资料， interview几句话，吃几餐饭。
爱情不过是在了解中发生。
不过了解中，钱包请你填得体面点。

五十出头，爱情没死的话，倘若你还是健康的话。
你爱我吗？不再是最后阶段的恋爱。
健康还好吗?
爱情能否建立在没能把床弹得吱吱响的体力上？

六十出头，你还有能力期待爱？
身边没死的人，就是个伴。
倘若我能好好的记住你的名，对上几句令我愉快的话。
爱情好像也带不入棺材。

七十出头，幸运的你在回味你的爱情。
你失去理解别人的能力。
七十出头，不太好运的你，临终前有爱情的遗憾吗？
爱情，不过就死在你没有好好的猎杀到他人的爱情。

爱情还是那么喜欢突然其来checkmate.
-end game-

七十一先生

My name is Seventy One. 71.

You may call me Mr.71.

71

is me

I'm 71.

一个十五的过去

Cause when you're fifteen
and somebody tells you they love you
you're gonna believe them
and when you're fifteen
feeling like there nothing to figure out

Fifteen - Taylor Swift

If I can swim better like a sperm, I would drown in the time capsule like a ovary back into my fifteen. A fifteen that is only happen once in my life.

Fifteen is the age I started my first date, which I literally screw everything. No feelings involved at all not even sweetness but there I sacrificed my kiss. Then I broke it up, cause I'm bored playing. I don't even have feelings, unlike those kids who will so linger about their first love, which is innocent, naive and so called as pure.

One-Five Year Old, I met my mentor. I turned bad after then. Thanks him, I hate Prangin and fall for Gurney happily ever after. Thanks him, I talk like an idiot. Thanks him, I think a lot more mature, he changed my mind. Thanks him, I spent lot in my fifteen. Thanks him, my fifteen was fun.

I remember how rough I'm when I'm fifteen. I'm kinda good in martial art back then, and I won a inter-school second runner up. Proud fighter stops fighting after the victory cause the I got bored. Well, I still good in flipping tables and throwing chairs or smash a few smaller size guys on the floor. I'm so trouble.

It's a PMR year for a fifteen's teen. I enjoy messing with friends in tuition classes. I enjoy the walk before and after tuition classes. I enjoy talking so loud in tuition class and I always got my works done partially but beautifully written. I enjoy running in rainy days tho I just did it twice in my life. PMR seems happy regardless results.

Emo. Quite not my style, because I was a ugly sunshine boy I think. I don't do internet this much. I enjoy take bus going everywhere with my first handphone and MP3. I have love-bugs.

I wrote a confession blog to someone. I fall deep for someone. I felt I'm special for the first time not only to my family. A fifteen years old is missing someone every time he blinks.

A fifteen in 2004, A Twenty One in 2010.

I never expected I'll be who I'm now
when I was 15
I no longer that daring
but I'm much brave
I'm still happy
yet pursuing a life which I'm contented with

Fifteen, I got my name as Hory
21. I'm proud of Hory

Bravo. Fifteen.

不要惹我生气

有感而发的看了一篇炮轰他人不是的文章。叫嚣得很气愤，写得恨不得把对方吞了，把毕生学会的污言秽语很贴切的形容了别人。 他的愤怒，他的悲惨，别人对他的亏欠，引来了一些路人甲乙丙丁的站台，忙着如回音的附和，尽一份所谓朋友的道义。

结尾里，狠狠的搁下了一句

我告诉你我是个怎样的人， 你得罪我一次，我不会还你两次，我会还你一辈子，给你翻不到身你最好给我明白!!
我不好惹!!

经典得让我笑了一下。

把时间挪回两三年前，依稀的听过好一句相似的话，不外乎，

别惹我生气，我疯起来连我自己也怕
不要弄我生气，我不知道我会做出什么事情

说的时候，气势要带种，眼神要狠，拳头要握紧。说完了势必转身就走，因为身后的人必然错愕的害怕着你。

是吗？
当你发狠的时候，嚷这几句话出来，无非是要个下台阶。想说可以唬吓对方，也可以漂亮的脱身，顺便幻想你把讨厌的人吓得愣着，旁人为你的英勇鼓掌欢呼。

殊不知，你整个气势一气呵成后，马上逊掉。 我的白眼翻得快翻不会来了，怎么办？

Who

谁进来，却不留声息的离开？
飘渺得让我困惑

着迷于你
朦胧间的暧昧

甜甜的
消逝得快乐点

我们静静的喧哗
只有彼此的心听见对方大声地密语

我小心地在你心里
刻下名字
伴随心跳
陪着我

晚安，爱情
你是谁？

快乐需要有你们

从云顶回来也有三天了
那种愉悦依然

不写回忆
风干了
老时拿出来回味

征服了云霄飞车，下次一定要吐在海盗船

附注槟城很热
喜欢被冷雾萦绕

ROAR

Converse

3 Polo -T
3 T-shirt
FourSkin Flip-Flop
4 Renoma <3
Coloured Hair
New Cleanser
Clay Mask

Not So Shopaholic, Compared to real SHOPAHOLICS
Nicely prepared before CNY? hope so...
head home, fews day won't be on the world...

Sarcastically Masked!
AUMMM~~~ ROAR~~~~
Red red won't harm ppl

Call ME Cute! Handsome! Sophisticated!

Whisper to Owl

Today is the day I talk to Owl
I found it so funny and laugh non stop in class, and lost all my sleepiness
I laugh non stop every time I turn and saw Owl's face, I'm mad in class, insane...
It has been a long time that I got such hard tickles

The Owl will ROAR~ with claws

LOL!

still looking similar
and I still laughing seeing this Owl..

超低能，劲搞笑

超低能，劲搞笑
It is so not my style

I'm A Penang True Blood

Mali was here, 25- 29 January 2010.

Thanks to him that finally I get to explore the place that I have stayed for almost 21 years.
Well, have to talk a little bit about the Ray of Hope, which is so stupid to pay RM45 to taxi driver!

1st day-For so long time I never went into Siamese and Burmese Temple, but that's the 1st day of his visit because it is so sad that he left with 'Designer' after Gurney...

2nd day-Khoo Kongsi where is the first time I step in, but it change my idea about it... it was so different inside compared to my imagination... haha... then we walk to Majlis Kapitan Keling and it is also the first time I step in to a mosque, surprise!!~ and we walk to the Temple of Mercy Goddess then we again walk to Little India... I almost got my leg lost in the town... before I started to drive my car to Cheong Fatt Tze which they are only having two sessions in a day, and we missed the 1st session and 2nd session is still a few hours to go. Mali merajuk~ so we leave it and go to Peranakan Mansion so see those baba nyonya house and stuffs... So many first time happen in a day, and we go Gurney again... and I watched 3 movies in a day!!! Mali took so many of my 1st time T.T

3rd day-Dumped him cause I need to go class and change my hair, dye it RED!!!! then at night only I go Gurney fetch him to Pasar Malam again we have ice potong and rojak~~ rojak~~ then we head to Kek Lok Si to see the night view of Penang Island, but too bad it is closed by that time and the dark there is scarily frighten me... and we go to Esplanade to have a walk :)

4th day-Last day Mali should be in Penang 'Suppose'... we went Kek Lok Si again go up to the big bronze Goddess of Mercy then after Kek Lok Si, we went to my favorite laksa and cucur udang stall to eat... yumm yumm then we went Queensbay to watch Universal Soldier and have Kenny Roger before sending him off to air port... A few wrong turn caused we are just on time to the air port but too late to check in..Ish~ As then we met MISS DISASTER NIA~~ missed flight, back Tunes.. Tomorrow is another day in Penang...

5th day-Went Fort Cornwallis to walk around then go to have Curry Mee at TARC's area, which I almost caused him to eat the pig's blood.. haha... then went to Butterfly Farm.. *whisper* tu budak so sissy, macam fairy in the farm... hahaha then we head to Paradise Beach since Penang is so famous for Beach/Bitch, not to forget we went Gurney again XD... then we headed to Clan Jetty and walked all the jetty there... LONG LIVE MY LEG!!! and this time we headed to air port so early not to miss any planess...

P/S : Loves those 5th days photos~ haha
P/P/S : This is a fuckao messy journal which just for record, do not expect much

muacks. HIAO!
Imma Penang True Blood now on!!!

W.W.Wtf

It is called as World Wide Web for some reason but it is still damn weird that I have visitor from too far apart of the world and some countries that I can't even know where to seek them in the map... how awesome?

Hohoho... Don't get jealous, because I seriously don't see any benefit from it
but got spammed by lusty comments
-.-''' w-t-f?

我是斗鱼

我们明天就在一起。我爱你，请你不要忘记。

颜色越是灿烂，越是难以接近。

我是群体的金鱼，有无限的梦想
我的爱情是斗鱼。

圈圈说 “ 我们都以为爱情的魔力可以让另一半为我们改变但往往改变的

却是二人之间的爱情”

Rainbow On Head

Whee, exam over... my mind is so free and think of this quote when I'm bathing

人生最快乐的事，莫过于没有考试，

人生最愉快的事，莫过于考完试，然后看你们考试！

共勉之~

and instantly, I fall sick.

Erm... well, I should have starting to do my shopping on Chinese New Year's new cloths , hunting for my shorts, jeans and my favorite shopping of all time

underwear!!!

Another very mind troubling issue, what hair colour I should put on? It has been troubling me for awhile and caused me dragging my appointment to have my hair done since Jun 2009. Hmmmm, really so troublesome...

till then, wait for my coloured hair

I might ends up this way

too~

KNFS!

Was checking my post, and again was happily surprise I have lots of comments in a single post...
13, is a good number!

mind's pop up "ei! Since when I have so many comments?"

-.-'''

Again I have a porno blog's comments to brag about...
Hey, Jap... can you all stop komichii-ing in my blog?

Exam period still need me to clean up those mess, grrrrr.... Talking about exam, I noticed that every exam period I will have those escapade thinking, which leads me to lots lots lots of fantasy about going to travel! DAMN!

Exam period, you know I know. I turn very anxious, when I'm anxious, I turn very rough and ferocious, and when I'm rough and ferocious, I turn very brutal, and when I'm brutal, I turn very.....................KNFS! -Credit Vynn Lew for teaching me this-

I have relatively low mood this few days, which can be blame on my study habits. 积少成多，滴水成河，堆沙成塔 and I got frustrated looking at my text and those notes. I went online search for examples, I got information over loaded. DAMN! Search examples 20%, FB & MSN 80%

Now I started to jot down those essences of my subject into 5 bloody fark of papers, bring in for the open book exam. I have modafuka trouble with those font size and sengek writing on blank paper, no lines allow.. diu.. lines can help us cheat meh? despite font size, the serious problem is I do not have a clear mind about what should I put into the 5 pieces of bibble/ "ang gong hu"!

Basic of all, I'm so lazy and pro in whining about everything but no aksi-aksi hebat.
Cure laziness, Fark Exam.

I rather blog, than study.

Talking about January, so far so good. Probably still the 1st month of the year which I still in mood to see everything in a good way, even bad is good by now. till then I don't know...

People~ oh~ people... Can you stop using magnifier to look at your own problems, and non-stop complaining? Why can't you go check out solution or work on others stuff? but keep blah blah blah ain't going to help you to feel better. I don't mind listening once or twice or even trice, but once every night is too much... I wish to duck-tape your mouth, if this can be my new year resolution.

Exceptional are being give out based on my mood and never less I only love listen to those I consider myself close with. Others then that, please

Stop bomoh-ing me, exam is already troublesome...

finger crossed for lazy people,
exam pass like nobody business,
sigh, blog so much, read so little, jotted less then a line in 5 hours time.
XD

2010 - First Chapter

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