When The Santa is Riding Rudolf, I'm Chasing After Them

Today is Christmas, No Snow over here... just plain body ache...

Yesterday was the Christmas Eve, at first I thought that I will spending it alone at home for this year... I am all emo over this issue..

Luckily The Billy Comes To Rescue

He asked me to club with him and his friends, at 1st I was quite hesitate to join as I know nobody despite of him... but when Josh decided to go, and the one who put me aeroplane decided to comes at last - Super Bottom Dandor! haha~ I got no reason not to go anymore! I need fun !

I was there quite early... 8 something, I met up with Scissors and Hou Hou as all my people are still having their own fun without me! sigh ~ Chat and talk with Scissors, while she is playing with poker, Dig Big Bro 2~ haha I don't know how to play even after so many times I have learnt..
by the way, Scissors got a new name from Dandor - Hu Li Jing , The Fox Lady

Billy was there before 11, Josh was there 11 something... Dandor!!!! was there at 11.39pm!
These people... sigh~ I was there 8 somthing

That particular night, I am like the liqour selling person outside of clubs, keep on telling my friends prices and so on so for.. So any commission for me?

In MOMO, what else I can do? haha..
Drink but not drunk.. as I need to drive Super Bottom home as well as myself.. samo...so many people, so little liquor.. don't dare to drink much as well...

but what am I going to do when I set myself in club?

DANCE~ Just Dance!
Shake and shake and shake
Slut and slut ans slut

Rub and rub and rub

well well well... I only danced with those I know.. sigh.. why no people approaches me? *build a bridge and get over it!*

Josh and Super Bottom both got something in hand, especially Josh.. si pek hiao

Additional scene : I saw the real fight outside of Mois.. wah~ hou geng a~~ hou sai lei a~~

Josh, Billy and others went back earlier.. Left me and Super Bottom continue in dancefloor, I didn't even know when Billy left, he left without a goodbye.. this kind of people...

By the way, surprisingly! I met You in club, I was not so happy for a second when I first know that you are there and dancing with guys.. but a second later, I found it so meaningless... I need to be indifferent to your stuff, even I can't I also need to act out that I felt indifferent about it...

Enson and Da Bing was not expected that I would saw them..

The Red Shirt~ haha.. I am so obsess with you! but you are... sigh.. I don't know how to say, so sad and dissapointing ~ lolz~

After those hard workout in club.. Im am classified as *si sua* means I'm like shattered into pieces..

till now, my neck, arms and waist are all pain... ish~ old old old~

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This post, all the things are mixing here and there.. it is kinda of random, as I have a fuzzy mind when I'm in there.. dun expect too much~

今夜的星光，我想起他们

今晚，有星星在天空上
我在键盘上飞舞
我诚实地面对自己

把车子停好后，仰了头，好意外的看见了漫天的星星
好久没有看见星星了，最后一次看的时候也不懂是几时了
星星比起月亮还要温柔
却同时也比太阳更坚强
很喜欢看见它们一群群的，就好像是兄弟姐妹
我有点妒嫉，更多的是羡慕。

这种心情，不懂怎么形容
不是不开心，不是郁闷
不能说是开心，也不是快乐

最近总是这么想，为什么就不能潇洒点？
有个朋友不见了，真的是不见了
好像一切只活在回忆里
我们的笑声，如今回想起来
竟然有点刺耳
回忆里的阳光，竟然耀眼得我想架起墨镜
为什么你能那么潇洒？
大家都好像多余的被你排除在你的生活以外
还是只有我而已？
祥，我很想你

我们回不到以前的时光
那段我们庆祝
见面满意一星期，两星期
我们有过很快乐的以前
可是
不代表现在的我们不快乐了
只是
我们之间而已的快乐少了
变成
你和他们，我和他们
你也潇洒了。
我在争宠吗？
我啊我。。。 竟然在想你
you, kat mana lobang? Malam ni pusu malam?

你们最近还有吵架吗？
朋友， 我不再是你们的夹心面包了
好久没有每天窝在你的房间
我和你看的东西越来越不一样了
是大家都长大了吗？
我还会是哪个你第一个想起的人吗？
我还是那个你放心把女友交给我的兄弟吗？
我好像开始在另一个轨道了
少了你们，我有点孤独
你们有好好地在相处吗？
珠， 你吃了没？
耀，你好势吗？

我是你的好朋友哦
我是你第一个想起的朋友哦
我好重要，哈哈
最近你怎么不说话？
你讨厌看到我？
不要紧啦~
每次看见你，都会很想告诉你很多很多
我可以不要在乎那么多吗？
你很贪吃
我还是想问你，要吃晚餐么？

喂！ 快点叫我。。
很久没有听你叫我主人了
猪宠物，PEG
主人我，好想念那两年哦
少了你，那两年我会是不快乐的
坦白说，每次弄你，我都很开心
我打你，酸你
还真的是带着
打是爱，骂是疼的心情
能见你的时间越来越少了
喂，我要喝水！

Meeku
你还好吗？
谢谢你让我长大
你给过我的，到现在我还怀念
每次和你擦肩
对我来说都是一次的伤
少了你
空白多了
if can, can I have another hug?

Senior
你也好好的吧？
在你生命里，多我不多，少我不少
是我的遗憾
不是说好的吗？
好朋友
感觉你在欺骗我
你快要离开了
今夜的星星，你又看到吗？
如果可以，我还是会跑去那个巴士站
你呢？

Daddy，你听到吗？
你的骄傲在想你
三年了，我真的有很努力的在想你
你一直都在
你并没有离开我，真的
没有说过我爱你
我知道你好爱我
我很开心
如果可以， 我做你爸爸
我不要离开你
我也要你是我的骄傲
我知道你一定是我的骄傲

十六年，我并不知道
十六年后，原来你是那么重要的
如果还可以，我一定多点回家
还想被你载
还想被你牵
还想陪熬夜
还有好多好多的好想
答应你的事
不是做得那么好
我还会努力的
爸，你是我的骄傲
我真的好想你

这个有星星的夜晚，我想起了他们
他们是我的星星
爸爸，是我的恒星

The 1st Time I Got Tagged

Patutkah saya gembira atau geram?

1. What’s the relationship of you and her/him?
♫ He is male friend of mine over msn... should him be so? haha

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
♫ He is easily annoyed, loves the one who bears the unbearable, he looks hotter in short hair, he gila till epilated his hair, he flirts me once in a while, he got 2 msn, what a weirdo he is?

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
♫ Hory, you are handsome! hahaha..

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you.
♫HE TAGGED ME! WTF?

5. If she/he becomes your lover, you will:
♫ I will fuck him till his asshole bleed, rush him to hospital and ask the doctor to plaster his ass, better still sew it !!!

6. If she/he becomes your enemy, you will:
♫ Seriously, I will epilate his pubic hair! So you better beware!

7. If she/he becomes your love, she/he has to improve on:
♫ Only after he get over the one who bears the unbearable...

8. If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is because:
♫ Try to epilate my hair, force me to eat his pubic hair... haha.. I serious don't know, but it happens to be the 2 I mention, he will be dead straight! I swear on my tounge!

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
♫ Next time, I shall help you to epilate your hair.. *Wink*

10. The overall impression of him/her is
♫sissyhairysissynicesissycutesissyfriendlysissyawsomesissy

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
♫Spectacular! Handsome! WFT? I very obsess with myself

12. The characteristic that you think you have, is?
♫ Marvelous inside out~ wohoooo...

13. On the contrary, the characteristic you hate of yourself is?
♫ Being too perfect! WTF?

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is?
♫ my perfect role model would be Hory Hor.. well, he got all in one package~ OMG!

15. For the people who care about you and like you, say something about them.
♫ 1st of all, I would like to thanks my papa, mama, aunty, uncle... ( a list of billionz people) without your support, there would be no Hory that you are seeing now.. Thank you!

16. 10 people you tag:
♫
1. Estella
2. Billy
3. Sherene
4. Cindy
5. Dandor
6. Wuha Yip
7. who ever saw this
8. who ever saw this
9. who ever saw this
10.who ever saw this

Who ever did not do it, they would not pee for one day

17. Who is No. 2 having a relationship with?
♫ He sleep around I think, he love to try on new things

18. No. 3 a male or female?
♫Female

19. If No. 7 and No. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
♫ It could be, as I dunno who will be

20. How about No.5 and No. 8?
♫ No.5 is a chest hair lover~ so , No.8 got to grow some chest hair first...

21. What is No. 1 studying about?
♫E-commerce n Marketing, major How to snatch a handsome guy's love? *scissors scissors*

22. Is No. 4 single?
♫ She said she is..

23. Say something about No. 6?
♫ Wuha wuha wuhahaha.....

I admit, I am bad! Sue me la!

Some People Likes To Make Jokes On Themselve To Makes Others Happy

There is an afternoon, which is a wonderful one for me that I just woke up not so long ago... After my goodie little brunch.. haha.. then I on my msn as usual.. while I thought that no one to be chat with in this Saturday afternoon, something interesting happens..

** Warning** The content is HILARIOUS!

Someone added me so long ago, n I deleted him out of my msn, as far as I remember he is just a kid with the age of 16 or 17.. the most I think he is just 18.. I can't really remember who he is, but still got tiny little idea.. The only thing I did it so wrongly, is sometimes I forget to block out those person I deleted their msn, as some I didn't because I reserve the future that we might be best friend back in msn..

I got no idea what is happening when the conversation window of this golila_lila@hotmail.com pops up!

golila_lila@hotmail.com says (2:02 PM):
hey,stop disturbing him,u know who i mean -- people usually greet when they wants to talk..

golila_lila@hotmail.com says (2:02 PM):
what else u can do if he don't love u.just STOP it! -- well, He don't love me, I'll not love him too.. but you seems loving him but he don't love you.. Don't blame me on that, is you are the one who is not good enough!

- Having 2 ulcers in mouth, it simply kills me off(o.O)(O.O)Hory(o.o)(O.o) |那个东西不是时间，是距离| www.myhoryme.blogspot.com says (2:03 PM):
disturbing who?

- Having 2 ulcers in mouth, it simply kills me off(o.O)(O.O)Hory(o.o)(O.o) |那个东西不是时间，是距离| www.myhoryme.blogspot.com says (2:03 PM):
did u get the wrong person?

golila_lila@hotmail.com says (2:03 PM):
no -- so sure that I am the one who grabs his love... I never know I'm that attractive.. :) you make my day :)

- Having 2 ulcers in mouth, it simply kills me off(o.O)(O.O)Hory(o.o)(O.o) |那个东西不是时间，是距离| www.myhoryme.blogspot.com says (2:03 PM):
then who im disturbing?

golila_lila@hotmail.com says (2:04 PM):
think of it urself!! -- No! I can't think, I don't have a brain like you!

- Having 2 ulcers in mouth, it simply kills me off(o.O)(O.O)Hory(o.o)(O.o) |那个东西不是时间，是距离| www.myhoryme.blogspot.com says (2:04 PM):
i dun even know who u are...

- Having 2 ulcers in mouth, it simply kills me off(o.O)(O.O)Hory(o.o)(O.o) |那个东西不是时间，是距离| www.myhoryme.blogspot.com says (2:04 PM):
u very funny..

golila_lila@hotmail.com says (2:04 PM):
u don't have to know who i am,just stop bothering him! --This is hilarious! Like HK gangsters! ooo... I am shivering~

- Having 2 ulcers in mouth, it simply kills me off(o.O)(O.O)Hory(o.o)(O.o) |那个东西不是时间，是距离| www.myhoryme.blogspot.com says (2:04 PM):
who is the him?

- Having 2 ulcers in mouth, it simply kills me off(o.O)(O.O)Hory(o.o)(O.o) |那个东西不是时间，是距离| www.myhoryme.blogspot.com says (2:05 PM):
i dun even bothering anyone!

- Having 2 ulcers in mouth, it simply kills me off(o.O)(O.O)Hory(o.o)(O.o) |那个东西不是时间，是距离| www.myhoryme.blogspot.com says (2:06 PM):
u are damn fucking funny

Those light sissy purple are from Golila Lila
The bright brilliant green is from the Almighty Hory
Those red words are from me :)
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and he just went offline, owh~ how manners he is?
The I was just wondering, why he could not provide me the clear answer since he wanted me to stop bothering the *anonymous* so much~ He should have just tell me who I'm bothering and.. Well, I might stop bothering..

I figured out some answers for myself since he is chickened and went off just like that..

1) Well, I attracted his guy? Am I or did I?

2)He is so stewpid, he get to scold the wrong person.. Chinese says : 点错相 that's why he just go off?

3)He just wanna grabs my attention on him? Trying to make me remember him?

so, anyone out there.. please, if you wanna stop a person from bothering your beloved one, please tell him who is your beloved one.. People like me are too attractive, I don't remember who I attracted :) and I don't usually bother a person as I am not annoying as * Golila Lila*

*evil's grin*
Take care of your guy people! Hory is coming to catch!! SAVE A LIFE PLEASE!!!

~FARNY~

p/s: If you can't keep your love in your pocket safely, don't blame others when it fells off~

Bo Balance

Just finished my Information System's test and my International Marketing's presentation today.. well... yesterday I had so much fun cooking over my friend's house, loiter in the mall.. doing things that what a rotten kid should be doing..

well well well... I did fucking badly on my Information System test, I didn't even flipped a page before I go for the test all that In my mind was presentation presentation.. because normally form my past experience I did quite well in Information System even tho I don't really study.

Consequences of not paying attention during lecture, tutorial and class skipping like a rotten kid..
I stared blankly on the questions paper, and the GOOD LUCK.. the GOOD LUCK is so fucking annoying when it appears on the paper.. haha.. I did it so badly, it got no different it I just submitted my name on a sheet of blank paper.. than different is the paper i passed up is dirtied by pen ink..

Back to International Marketing... well.. I did not really prepare my presentation this time, I just simply draw and jotted some points on the OHP slides, and I got a box of condom pasted up with Harry Potter picture.. haha.. as my presentation's tool..

While my turn to present, I felt awkward and have a very messy mind.. all the monkeys jumping inside, screaming.. argh~~ I am in trouble.. so I craps whatever is in front of my eyes.. I even have some stupid pauses and stucked. The sentence I made out , is kinda weird.. hahaa.. after I present out all, erm.. I felt like I am just doing my 50 out of 100.. which is awful!

Fine fine fine.. but when Miss Jocelyn annouced that she gave me 24/25 for my presentation, OMG~ what she is doing? She commented that Im nervous, but I manage to speaks, creative and fluent.. which all I think despite of nervous all are just another way round..

I felt so imbalance with my perfomance...

Cookery Cookery Cook!

There was a day, I cook for my lovely friend.. hahaha

save up those craps~

What I have bought to cook?

Winter melon
Fish cakes
Chicken Breast Meat
Chicken Drumstick
Cocktail Sausages
Smoke Ham
Yao Muk Vege
Just A Little Bit of Ikan Bilis

All cost me Rm 19~ cheap or expensive? I dunno~

And I have came out with this... The food doesn't look nice, blame the perempuan who keep on eat while I'm cooking~ She destroyed their look!

Let picture tells you the rest~



The Spaghetti, it suppose to be orange colour but my phone makes it looks yellowish



The Oyster Sauce braise Chicken Drumstick..



The Winter melon soup.. haha.. why fish cakes are inside? Coz I lazy to make another dish so I just buang inside.. not bad tho~



The Fried Yao Muk~ so little hor? Coz we eat while we cooking others... When it comes to photo session.. it dah jadi macam tu~ hahah

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Who I Am ? or Who I Am Suppose To Be?

Recently or be accurate this few days... My mood fluctuate like a lady with blood dripping out from somewhere ( let's not talk about discrimination, don't get me wrong! I found it amazing!)...

There are some very serious question been bugging me, trying to make my life not that enjoyable, not that interesting... urgh~ this is definitely not something interesting to talk about! TO BE WHO I AM ? OR WHO I AM SUPPOSE TO BE?

You can ask me to define who Hory is, I can tell you perfect answer.. but does the answer presenting the same way as who I am? I can only telling my very own perspective of who I am or who I wanted you to be impress with, hence I am very confuse... indeed very blur about it.

To be who I am?
Am I silence? Am I talkative? some find me silence, scary, proud and moody... some find me annoying, chatter box, funny... What can I tell is, sometime I really cannot find my very own comfort when facing with every individual. Like a stranger, if one's is trying to be close with me, approached me and talk about everything that I least interested or I find it pointless, I might be the one who show a very unpleasant face, and people take me as someone who is very hard to get near with.. Same things applied to my best friend that know me, they will find me even more ridiculous that what they are telling.. concluded, I am double faced?

To be who I am suppose to be?
You should smile more! You should be more easy going! should I be ? Lots of people been trying to influence me to be someone better in their eyes, some they succeed some not.. They been try to reform the Hory that they wanted him to be or I should say, sometimes the enviroment are not encouraging me being who I am, but who I suppose to be... I got to smile even I hate, I got to be silence even I got question to ask, I got to leave even I would love to stay....

Uncle and his family is back in the town, mom and aunts they all seems like so bonded and wanted to see uncle so much... is that the real fact I'm seeing? and Why I can't get along with them? The 2 reunion dinner, I dine as if I know non of them, what I know is finish my food, then I can leave the dining table, is not that I hate them, I just find myself suffocating without any reason... I can't speak a single line to my cousins, and they are all good person to mix with... Am I shy? or I'm a piece of arrogant shit?

Friends told me that, those who really know me, will find me funny and easy going ; those they dunno me will seriously take me as a very arrogant piece of shit...

Being who I am , and being who I am suppose to be, is both really hard to me... I felt that I'm a loner and I don't really understand who I am.. I'm sorry, I'm still learning...

P/s : this post is boring.. sigh~

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I’ll be waiting for the real thing,
I’ll know it by the feeling
The moment when we’re meeting,
will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I’ll be holding my own breath, right up ’til the end
Until that moment when,
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There’s gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it all on their own
And everyone wants to know they’re not alone
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there
Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this means too right,
it’s just like deja vu
Me standing here with you
So I’ll be holding my own breath,
could this be the end
Is it that moment when,
You can’t give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
The wind shows up, (make sure you’re holding on)
Cause it could be the one, the one you’re waiting on
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There’s gotta be somebody for me, oh
Nobody wants to do it all on their own
Nobody wants to be the last one there

The Last Glow of November

Here, I'm on 30 Nov 2008

It is on a fast track, everything happened in this month... I can't even digest before the another comes across. Lucky me, so far nothing really bad happened, but those happened have gave me some thoughts, share or not to share? better not....

Each time, I made a footprint on the ground I should feel that I'm solid.
Each time, I getting better and better, I want everyone to know that I'm vivid.
The glow I have with me, it will not be only spark. It shines through every souls that know me.
I wish I could.

Here's the good bye for the lovely November I have...

我很黑头

黑头！！！《 这里的字请highlight来看

真的是三条线加三条线！！！

最近是不是表达的能力不好？让身边的人三不两下就很厉害的误会我的意思，搞到我自己都乱七八糟的。

明明好声好气的在聊，到最后跟你正经了一下，想不到你还震惊咯。。 吓倒我了！
我是无理取闹？
我是不能接受你们说的话？
我误会你的意思哦？
不敢听我电话，是因为怕我骂你？

到最后，我也火大了，讲到好像很了解我，可是却不明白我在讲什么。。。给人家听到还真是丢脸。

几好笑几百下~ 你们真得再“耗嚣”我的感情咯！好心你们慢慢了解了才来说明白我， 不用急的， 你快又准也没有奖拿的， 真不好意思。。。

朋友做到这样真得很没有意思的，我看还是算了吧。。 免得误会来，误会去， 很“显”的！干来吊去是很累的。。。

Rainy Oct

I just flipped a new page in my life, it is not easy
I tried to wrote something on it, but it does not ease
So I canceled some, and try to rephrase my life
But now I'm staring blankly on the new page
Not wanted it to be perfect, but hopefully it is full of joy

I don't know who is right, and who is wrong
I don't know how to make judgmental
So I can only make myself experimental
Not to give up, why should I? I'm still standing tall
Trying to see all, trying to get all, trying not to fall

People comes and goes, in this rainy October.. sigh~

Say NOT

There are certain things in my life that I should learn to say not to it..

NOT to care so much

NOT to think so much

NOT to wish so much

NOT to fantasize so much

NOT to believe so much

NOT to love so much

NOT to fall so much

NOT to trust so much

NOT to put in so much

and now...

I just can't give in and can't give up...

Fuck the one who make me in this situation..

几HAO LIAN 一下

告诉你。。 我变了！我变到很 HAO LIAN

因为我现在可以大大声的HAO LIAN说 ：

我是 ALL PASS 的。。　你看啦，我是不是很HAO LIAN？

没有办法咯。。。谁叫我 ALL PASS？　我也不想HAO LIAN的。。。

真是的，开心到我半死。。。也HAO LIAN到半死。。所以就全死！！　呸！

还几怀念上个sem的事情。。。　很忙可是很充实！O Week 和　OO9都很开心。。。

当初还怕因为太忙而导致考试会不好。。。　结果你看，　我ALL PASS了！哈哈哈哈

我很HAO LIAN对不对？你吹啊？　我是ALL PASS。。。

看来我不只是HAO LIAN，　我还很欠揍！　　

。

一个句点。

终于， 事情都摊开了。 我不懂哪来那么多勇气？

我不简单的接受了，而和你还是朋友。。

我很开心，同时很不开心。

开心，是我有一种很放松地感觉，不用在你面前畏畏缩缩的，我已经光明正大了！

不开心，我知道答案了。

患得患失。五年不容易， 现在化灰了的梦想。。。 是时候再慢慢的从新建立。

而我还是需要时间去调适。。

如果有机会，未来，我还是想参赛。。。

你让我学会太多太多了。。真的谢谢你！

下次见到你，我可以打你了！

暗戀

只是他笑了...

自己就跟著高興...

只是他難過...

自己就跟著揪心...

見不到面時...

放眼望去...整座城巿都是他的風景...

有時候特別繞了一大圈...

只是為了偷看他一眼...

這時候全世界只剩下他一個人...

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是啊...人人都是暗戀高手...

因為這件事沒有門檻也無需學習...

它突然就來...而我們拒絕不了也不想拒絕...

雖然跟愛情根本就還沾不上邊...

卻令人心醉神迷...

我願意相信這就是愛情的原點...

偷偷喜歡一個人...是一種魔法...

可以這麼令人感受到如此豐盛的生命力...

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只是...這種心情很容易遺忘...

特別是在愛情發生之後...

by 圈圈

或在爱情发生以前，他发现以后，我的心情总是很堵烂。。。< 这句是我的！

不躲了，对不起

昨天，10月4日08年，晴天

呱呱吵的说要去逛街， 不要在家胡思乱想，弄些有的没的，总是折磨自己。犯贱

呱呱吵的一只说要遇见你，碰见你。。。 没停过嘴，朋友听了都烦！ 我却不亦乐乎。。。

我总是很多话的一个人，我也很胆小。我想遇见你, 我更害怕碰见你。矛盾

一直囔着要遇见你，其实我敢那么吵着要碰见你，因为我会真的碰见你的巴仙率是少得可怜。。

结果，头奖并不是那么难的一回事。。。

交谈间，我语塞，脑钝。。。 仿佛，你并不认识我的，一直在和我的朋友小小声地交谈，谈一些我不知所云的事情，那十分钟，你并没有和我又眼神交流，我是透明的。。。不存在的。。我一直都是。。。到最后，那敷衍似的交谈， 让我整个情绪都开始崩裂。。。

是我要我的朋友告诉我所有的事情，你跟她解释那个男生不是你男友，不要误会，为什么你不能大大方方的解释？可悲的我，原来，我朋友问你，为什么不和我说话时，你答了句“我不知道跟他谈些什么？” 原来我又令你苦恼了。。。而也是我自己讨了这个苦头来吃。

现在的我，知道了。。。原来那个星期二，那封信。。 你看过了， 你也问过我的朋友了。追逆起来，你好像已经开始在逃避我了。 我说过的，你看了，我们就没有办法当朋友。。。是我没有办法面对你， 对不起是我不好。。。

3.27am 我发烧了，手脚都很冷。。 脑涨涨的，不舒服。。。 我太在意你了。。

是时候摊开来， 跟你把事情解决了。。。 我不逃避了，我愿意把事情跟你讨论了。。。 几时？很快。。
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*5年前- bilik mesyuarat 外，鱼池前，把那叠传单丢给你， 并不是偶然和随便的。

之后，在校园内碰见你，我都是中头奖的开心。一直都好希望碰见你，可惜，你不常出现。。。

*4年多前，偶然发现你会在巴士站等巴士，你的脸好酷也好凶！ 星期三，你常出现，我都会很早的 收拾好书包，跑到巴士站笨笨的守株待兔。

*2005年后来，你毕业了，也不见了，有点失落了一段时间。。。直到我毕业前，我都是在星期三搭巴士回家，习惯了。。。除非真得没有办法。。。

*2006年12月26日，在网站遇见了你，超超超开心的。。我是bus stop junior 你是bus stop senior！

我们保持联络了，msn~

*2007年4月8日，我生日，你email 给我的生日歌,mail 是不见了，快了我永远保存了。
Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to You,
Happy Birthday to Junior,
Happy Birthday to You...
你从来没告诉我，你怎么会知道我的生日。。。

你总是会不见了一两个月，然后又跑出来。。。

后来，在你不见的时候，我一直给你send offline message, You're the Apple of My Eyes这句话,你不会不懂。

*2007年10月28日，WHO R U 和 DON CONTACT ME ANYMORE 分别在简讯的MSN里出现。我很受伤，我发现我很在乎你了。。。

*2007年12月，Hi 是你msn我的，你找回我了，我好开心！

你还是时而出现，时而不见，可是我也不敢乱来了。。。我怕你又会不高兴了。
直到我的生日又快到了，我要见你！我决定庆祝了，你真的是那个动力！

*2008年4月5日， 你出现了，第一次载你，警察局的入口处~No Air, 你和我都说很好听！ 那个夜晚，我们还有一堆的朋友去了Clubbing。。。我很很很开心。。 一切都是值得的！

*2008年4月11日，我和你去看了《三国无双》 第一次一起看电影！

*2008年4月12日，12小时内，我们又见面了！我们又去看《阿隆》！ 你亲手帮我戴上你送的项链，the day is the day of my life。

*2008年4月19日，我们去看《功夫之王》，票根掉了 ，我见不回。活像个笨蛋！

*2008年4月24日，FF 的人打给我，你不开心！

*2008年4月25日，珠的生日，我们去了Faces, 我并不知道那些事，过后我都没去了。

*2008年5月23日，Narnia- The Chronicle of Prince Caspian。 我的车坏了。。

*2008年6月7日，你的生日，我绞尽脑汁的不懂给你送些什么，结果做了那张卡，买了那本书，还到了海边弄了一个点满蜡烛的沙蛋糕给你，你没办法来，因为你和朋友庆祝生日，无所谓， 我也可以帮你默默的庆祝。。。 我的手手脚脚都受伤了，不过我很开心。原来你和我都在海边，我们却没有遇见对方。。。

*2008年6月8日，今天是轮到我了！手脚都很痛可是我还是觉得超值得！我们看了《PROM NITE》， 那颗气球。。

*2008年7月4日，我们看了《HANCOCK》

*2008年8月6日，我明天要跟你告白，今天，你有了男友。。。什么话都要往肚子里吞， 不可以让你为难，一点也不可以！

*2008年8月7日，那个午餐。 原来你发现了那封信。。 对不起，我不应该。。。

*2008年8月8日，故意给你的面包！ 世界上没有那么顺便的事情。。。

*2008年8月17日，《WALL-E》，这天我很安静。。。因为，你有男友了，我不可以！也没资格太关心你。。。 你为不舒服，我知道， 可是就是不开口问你。。。 戏院里，瞥到你在写的信息，当下，更不想去做一个多事的人！你爱他，我不可以烦你！

*2008年9月27日，我压抑了好久不去打扰你，这个凌晨你却一个人在加班。。。 很想冲去看你！ 我又做不到我很没有用。。。

*2008年10月1日，你恢复单身。

*2008年10月5日，我知道了你知道的。。。

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你说过，你是一个很不甘寂寞的人，很容易在别人安慰后就发生感情的人。。我很多时候都想能在你身边当一个可以让你分享的人， 我却没有勇气，我是乌龟！

很想坦坦白白的告诉你一切，你却说过， 如果一个你不喜欢或没感觉的人跟你告白，从此以后你会躲开那个人。。。

我的没勇气，我的闪缩， 是因为我害怕连跟你做朋友的机会都失去。。。

如今，我尽了力去保护的秘密 ，原来你知道了而我到如今才知道， 很可悲吧？。。 而你也逃避我了，那我就没有什么好顾虑的。。。

是的！ 我喜欢你很久很久了，我在意你的很多很多。。 那我做错了什么？

You're the apple of my eyes.
I shall treasure you as much as the king treasure his crown, without the crown, he shall be nothing but the fool, who thinks that he owned the world.

Im a fool, who think I can't be your lover, but atleast your friend...

罪过， 罪过

刚刚你说你单身！！！

我的心，一秒里蹦了整整一千下！！！ 1000！！！

好开心哦！！！

罪过， 罪过，罪过， 罪过。。。菩萨原谅！！

明天还神？哈哈~

罪过， 罪过

我能帮你些什么？

刚才，你还在公司，都几点了？什么时候了？你却还在公司赶着明天要用的东西。。。

我的心一阵抽痛的，原来我所谓的放下，竟然是一个对自己的谎言！

很想到你公司看看你，陪陪你。。。 我做不到。。 我很想哭！我很没用！想你安全，想你安心，想你快乐。。。 我却什么也帮不到你。。

问你，回到家后给个信息我好让我懂你平安到家，可是你却不想，原因是你会忘记。

我真的是那么的不屑吗？我的要求很多了吗？我真得很担心你~

你到家了吗？你有开快车吗？你累吗？你饿吗？

你已经下线了， 可是你是回家了吗？还是不想被打扰？

我今晚不睡好吗？

原来担心与关心是一体的。。。我体会到了

多事之秋

多事之秋到了么？看来又是时候多烧香了。。

考试完了，人闲了， 世界就不会那么平静了。。。

闹分手的，为了一句话而争吵的，迷糊的，荒谬的，神经质的，等等的。。。

排山倒海来着。。。真是要多拜神，所谓，拜得神多，得神保佑！ 抱个佛脚也是不错的选择。。。

话说，我看了新加坡电影， 《钱不够用2》， 看得我梨花带泪，哭得稀里哗啦，衣襟都湿了。。 当下真得很想给妈妈一个拥抱，说一下肉麻的话~哈哈。。 很好啦，给我的良心发现一下， 就真得那么一下！

话又说，上星期回鬼屋的一日游， 本来是好好的， 老头的一句话！ 杀伤力很强， 把我干妈一家十八年来的一手拉拔我长大的功劳， 像是从来没发生过一般！第二次了，很想当场给他杀死！TMD！ 告诉你！ 死老头， 没有你我不会死！没有帮你照顾了你孙子十九年的那一家，我才死！给了你两次机会，没有第三！等着当面出丑吧！我跟你没有亲！

最奇怪就是妈的句话，让我百思不解，外加纳闷， 更是无奈~

然后，最好的那对情侣朋友，再耍大花枪~ 也真得搞到我有点不知所措。。 。 左右为难！ 偏偏总是是那个在中间的~ 可怜到！ 吵吵闹闹的， 事情好像也开始平静了~我也快要收工了！！

明天要去快活了~希望如此！ 哈哈
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还是想对你说， 我爱你。。 请你快乐！我不打转了，下一个幸福的机会预留给你的几率应该会很渺茫吧？

虽然懂你最竟发生了不太开心的事，我尽量不去理会了。。毕竟不是我的资格，有些事还是那个他做会比较好。。。 所以你要加油！

希望我也捉得住幸福的尾巴。。。希望。。。

爆肝！！

爆肝啦！！
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再不睡觉就爆肝啦！！

我都快要忘了晚上睡觉的感觉了！

TMD!! 快去睡啦！！

脸贴屁股

一些友情，到后来只剩回忆，只能纪念。。。

几年来，长大的长大，成熟的成熟， 只有友情不会变质会像酒一样，越久越香醇。 是一句屁话！

我没有必要被你们践踏！把真心拿出来给你们，你们践踏了它的尊严，狠狠地摔在地上，支离破碎。

是我笨，没有发现我们不一样了。一通电话，转转折折的把我推来推去， 但是很谢谢最后那个有勇气的！ 你让我看清，我的地位，在你们心中的价值。

我一路走来，最为关心，最为开心认识到的所谓朋友，原来我的存在使他们的困扰，厌烦。。。

我并没有因为我的离开，而感觉到我们有所不同。而你们却因为我的不在，而感受到我们的话题不一样而演变到了不能共存的地步。

我很受伤。

原本一个我会见到好朋友的生日庆祝，会因为我的不在而变得快乐些。 以前你们所说的，我很能给你们开心，让你们大笑，原来是客套。谢谢你们的用心。

我愿我学会，不去付出真心，不再脸贴屁股。

那些朋友教会我的事情

对了，差点忘了

“祝你生日快乐”

Blog X 你

林珍珍！ 你好衰~ 我的第一次就这样了。

那件事我从来没有做过的，人家不想的！为什么你要逼我？为什么？为什么你要这样这样糟塌我？tell me why?

你用了我的第一次，还要我给钱~你很贱！

p/s ：咒人真的不好，时运低还真的被反射。。。 还是有点热热的~害羞

“叉照”两张

事发于二〇〇八年，九月，六日
几多颜色~ :)
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给死人的话：
第二天了，你当真没有看见我的missed call? 虽然只是想和你聊个天， 听听你的近况，跟你废话一两句。。 好像很难。 如果有急事找你救命，我死很久了 T.T

可能 你在避开我~ 为了什么？
可能 你发现了我~ 那么容易咩？
可能 你很忙~ 很有可能，也是很好的借口~
可能 我不值得~ 是吗？
可能 你的电话没钱~ 不要狡辩好吗？

太多的可能，令我发狂~
昨天跟另一个弃妇去逍遥， 哈哈~ 林珍珍~你是弃妇~X 死你
我不断的幻想你的出现，我们会巧遇，我会看见你，我们会有缘分~

妈的！ 眼睛一直在寻找你得踪迹，很累人~可是又情不自禁~ 犯贱到死！

所以今天要顺便blog X 你！

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张智成-爱情树

我不要你在我身边
却看著蓝天
不看我的脸
我但愿你快乐的飞
将来要相爱
都还有时间

风开始在吹 孤独好直接
爱最苦的是不能相依偎
然而我会等著你
回来的季节

我的爱情是一棵树
永远不会离开一步

风雪多残酷 我想我挺得住

我的生命是一棵树
只愿成为你的归宿
我义无反顾
守护你是最大 的幸福
(我义无反顾 从日落到日出 oh)

最深的温柔是成全
我张开双臂
任凭你来回

最痛的时候就思念
扎了根的心
不可能撤退

烂人

其实题目与这篇东西真的没有什么关联的。。。 纯粹发泄不爽+无名的不满

日子平平淡淡，有时有些调味了是必然的。。。 可是太呛的就未免太过位了。。。

太久没有用母语，用来用取得标点都是那三个豆 〉〉〉 。。。 显掉！

懒了，掰

Wall E : Ory H

Just back from Wall E with u , and also ur so called god sister.. haha.. it has been a while I hang out with u le.. seriously I long missed ur lovely face..

this afternoon while I was planning what time to go my aunt's house to meet up my mum, haha. well, I plan while having msn... suddenly u called up, a great surprise that u actually gave me.. Thanks..

Conversation:
J: hey, do u miss ur mummy?
H: huh?
J: come, I bring u see mummy..
H: hahahaha..

U actually remembered what u promised, altho I keep on remind u of that.. haha.. I beh su one.. hahaha..
I called up my mum and lie to her that I got something to do with my collegemate about academic stuff (Mum, Im so sorry..) and cannot make to meet her up, but mum seems like doesn't really care.. hahaha

The I get myself ready, wear my leng zai shirt, with the leng zai condition and a happy heart go see u lo.. hahaha... I was there slightly earliyer than u are.. haha, I decided to buy ticket lo.. mana tau Mummy full house la, nvm lo... Wall E oso not bad ma! (p/s :I meet up Eric ad, but I think he probably doesn't reco me la...) so we watched Wall E lo..

Wall E overall was a nice one, I love the plot n everything, it was so cute.. for a second I wish I was Wall-E, u were Eva.. hahaha... daydream la.. at a few times, I glance tru ur sms... I admit I'm bad.. haha.. I saw that u wrote to ur bf.. it ache my heart, so I turned another way round and not to see u.. a way to console myself.. I think....

After Wall E , we go makan at Kim Gary (urgh... I dun like that place la...) I ordered a toast that actually 2 inches thick... uelk...geli.. but thanks to ur god sister that measure for me.. hahaha.. after the food, u both go down to prangin without me.. I dun wanna follow as well la, dun wan to see u that often, will only make myself more saddening.. haiz..

Then on that way back , I think of asking Ah Xiang to join me n Elisa for Loong Gai, too bad he nvr answer.. so I go out with Elisa lo, we go QB mall.. hahaha, I talked lots bout u to her ad.. I think she bored until wanna vomit ad gua, everytime oso hear ur name only.. haha...

Today when go out with u, u seems like not so feeling well.. I noticed it, but I dun wanna show my concern coz I got to force myself make it clear.. U must take care urself... I m so sorry that today I actually talk little, coz I dunno why, I just wanna hinder away... yet, I felt heavy... you please take care yourself... my apple of my eyes... I really treasure u more than anything..

I LOVE U

Ory H

Roti Bun

Hey, today I go to Adventist Hospital and visit one of my junior from SWC.. haha.. he is bloody injured by car accident.. seems like those stage people likes to bang car alots ya.. haha..

I bought lots of roti bun over there.. haha.. that's y I got a bun face... imagine, I spent RM11.50 on bread sahaja.. scary rite? haha.. then Cindy, Tor and Me was wondering where to eat up those breadS we bought.. haha.. we are cute people, we do cute things.. We went to MCD... ordered a little, then enjoy our bun there..

Duh~ I can hardly finish all my bun, so I was thinking to being home the roll ( dunno what what roll la, but I think is the most delicious one) then.. U flashed tru my mind.. haha.. after a few smses.. I was on the way to send u the roll.. haha..

recently seeing u more than ever.. tho situation is kinda of different for me, yeah~ is only about me..

seeing u happy, I'm even more happy..
imagining u happily eating the roll.. I felt even more contented...

昨天的午餐,换取的眼泪

终于下定决心，是时候坦白的告诉你所有我的感觉。

因为害怕自己会说得不好，畏头畏尾的而给你写了一封信。

一顿午餐，预支一辈子的勇气。

我慢了一步，或许，我跑得再快，我也追不上。

开口前，你告诉了我，你很快乐， 你要珍惜那个他。。。所有的话， 伴随着我的午餐一并而下的消化了。

车里头，我捉紧你的手。 为了是不要让你拿到那封信，因为下来的日子会朋友难做。 心里多么挣扎？

我的那句话，你听了。应该庆幸你听话吗？

我不愿意，因为我的感情，让你难做，让他伤心，让我难堪。。。 是我太自私吗？

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这么多年的寄托好像就这么瓦解了，再不像放手也是好无奈的离开。如果一开始，我没有把传单放在你的手上，可能我现在会快乐吧？那一次，给了那么多传单你，是否意味着，我必须用一样多的时间去爱你？传单用完了吗？我的寄托，谢谢你
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你从来不必陪着我，而我只想呆着，
黑暗里少了你，应该也是一片黑，
希望没有分别才好。

以前我把手伸向你求救，
现在我只想呆在一片寂黑里，
所以我不会再看见你的脸。

虽然都不是我想要的，
可是看见你开心，
那我躲在黑暗里也是甘愿的。

今天的lunch以后,我还是什么都没说,没勇气。我更不知道几时才会见到你，几时我才再有勇气面对你，love you，一个粉红衬衫，牛仔裤，爸爸的鞋，四方耳环，喜欢项链的你。

my Love my Life

爱情退役

我不应该多事,
我不应该去看,
我不应该去问,

他是你的part time, 我是什么？

我在爱情里，被你强迫退役

心情乱糟糟。。。 鼓起的勇气，明天的午餐， 我该如何是好？

4th July Thanks for The Day

After missing u so much all over these days, finally today I manage to met u up and hang out with u ~ Im so bloody happy~ haha

I was late for the movie made u n Elisa wait for me as u both hang out when Im still in coll.. haha Hancock~ not bad but I might be too tired n hard to concerntrate.. Thanks for offering the hot dog... Im happy...

After movie we loiter around.. Phenomenal for poka dot shirt~ seems a very very nice one, but quite expensive hor? haha.. bo lui la

then we walk blankly in the mall but actually is seeking for my OO nite Shirt.. then I was hungry then we went to eat chinken rice shop and Im complaining that Im starving ~ haha

chicken rice shop... have great time talking, taking photo respectively.. heartache for a few moments when I heard that u are going to Australia...

met a few cutie friends in the plaza, elieen the SWC, Tristain which i rejected hang out many many times, Im guilty... Chee Pei.. Sherlynn n Edward etc i think ~

then u went home to have dinner with family, then I went back to fetch Elisa sis, Er Po n have little relax moment in MCD Caltex~ Tiring DAy~

Love ya..

Doomsday + Friendship + Random

Doomsday
not a bad movie wo... I was shock n scared a little bit.. Im a chicken !!! but when it near the end I laugh my shit out, especially when the Cio Make Up Girl de Si Lang Tao kena shoot! haha.. over was a nice one .. maybe I too long nvr watch movie le...

haha

wanted to have second movie with Jeremy de, but he nvr appear so nvm make it tmr..
will bowling and watch movie with them! hopefully I can make it

Movie still in hand : KungFu Panda, Happening, Wanted, Get Smart, Hancock.. etc..
Im broke!!

Friendship..
AH Xiang treating me like a pass by A .. haiz.. what else i can say?

Tmrw going out ...Yeah.. yi pee daa buuu~ haha

Money for Happiness

hey hey... I just back from celebrating your birthday with u ... celebrate? hang out is kinda of suit more...

1st time you come n fetch me... so touching.. haha.. like you really are my partner n come to fetch me.. haha

then we head to Gurney.. then we are kind of lacking topics to chat.. hehe.. reach gurney.. we go hang around. then We go the spectacle promotion there to have a look.. the sales girl is kind of attracted to you.. haha .. if not she wont ignore me to serve you de.. but happily you seems taking my opinion quite seriously.. haha..

then we move to MCD to have drinks n chit chat.. haha.. you see the video we took last night during the making of sand cake.. haha... you seems touching...

then we moved on to the GIorDANO.. where I used 3o for a T-shirt in order to help you get discount.. stupid hor? but I like to see you happy.. hehe.. n Elisa reached there... you need no to rush back for dinner .. She need no to rush for fetching uncle.. so good...

then we decided to watch "PROM NITE".. I m chicken I admit it!!! but I like the way we interact inside.. haha.. be frank I like the way you scared me.. haha.. I 犯贱..

After the movie we hang out at Celebrities Fitness.. we hang around.. for the club visit.. then I saw E-kit n friends... they was like looking at me.. n saying something behind.. maybe saying Im the beast n you are the good looking? who knows? I dun care la.. then we manage to get the free trail.. hahah... seeing you tmrw n we go celebrities fitness to work out.. shy la wei.. I so fat!!!

So happy that you stick to me like a kid...

June Seventh

Your birhtday.. A very very Happy Birthday to you..

haha

Today I planed so nice to make something sepecial, yet not so special actually for you.. n I dragged 2 of my friends in this dark water.. hahah

you cannot spare time to celebrate your birthdaty with me, then I celebrate your birthday with
my friends... hahaha

I go the the beach, on 5 or 6 something and start building a sand kind of cake for you... so kind of me.. I did it under heavy rain with Elisa.. played with crabs n dead fish around.. like a mad kid...

Your tomb~

By the time I done the sand cake, the sky was still too bright for me to light up those candle.. n the rain was too heavy as well.. if I'm sick.. hopefully you can relate it .. haha

so we went to House of Steambot to have our dinner... then back to Crown Beach to have my second sand cake.. hahaha... things come out as what I wants.. haha .. slightly different is acceptable.. hahah

My curse on myself was right n shown up.. I got bruised my knee n hand... haiz.. haha.. well, I think it is worthing more than enough if that is for you.. but not to others....

and I never know that you are so near adround... aiks...

take a peep~

How good am I?~ Very good~

less than 12 hours later I will be seeing you.. haha... you will fetch me for the 1st time.. n we will go for a random outing... looking forward..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
Hopefully you like your birthday's present that I scratch until my scalp bleed~ T.T

Giddens

It's been a very busy yet well packed n nice to enjoy week... after beach party I n II... and also the Steambot party.. today I get to meet my idol , my favorite writer.. GIDDENS...

I was so late to be there, and while listen to his story, I didn't pay much attention and not so concerntrate...

and guess what?

met mR . Tan n also several TARC student.. hahaaha... so unexpected~

I wish to buy a few books which I dun have.. but the fact is Im broke... boleh tengok tak boleh sentuh~

Well Well Well~

signature time.. wahahhaa.. and ofcourse I took photo with him..

see how inspired is his signature?

I look really shit~

He said I look like a main character in a japanese movie or drama or animation.. name Chiwawa?? not really remember.. I really got my mind blank when he talk to me.. yipeeeda buuuuu

and ofcourse the buddy that accompany me go there is the precious horse~ Beh!! later on he fethced me to fetch his wifey Sue Ann and we three go supper, then he drop me n goes his bro house to do some affairs~ hahaah~

So again, I balik kampung makan with Elisa for my second supper~ Hory! You are Getting FAT!

It is a memorable n nice week ~

What's Going On? Roller Coaster?

Yaya.. having roller coaster mood... this will be a simple yet random post.. as what I mention on the title...

Exam near le...

J and me another outing..hehe...

You forget to bring his handphone today... haha... You stated my name ( Mr. Hory) on your msn... I was so happy so happy so excited when I saw it..haha... At the afternoon, I was in Coffee Bean sitting alone there, tend to read something from the micro textbook, guess what? I only flipped a few pages, n I started to draw something on tissue, papers.. haiz.. useless fellar... after sitting there and finished my Extreme Mocha without cream.. my backside cant stand the chair any longer... so I find where the hell Fitness First is.. haha.. after a few twist and turn in the mall.. haha I cant find it.. so ask ppl lo.. haha.. n I found.. haha I saw u there.. but u haven't done ur gym, I WILL WAIT FOR U .. haha... the I ma loiter around to kill that little time, I comes back to FF for 3 times, haha like a small kid waiting for mummy... XD

Tonite at Faces, I nvr knew that the guy is ur ex... You seems having lotz fun chatting with those people around there... I admire you because of that... I LIKE THAT WAT, YOU ARE ALWAYS SO CHEERFUL AND LIKE A SUNSHINE TO ME...

About Zhu,

Yesterday was her birthday (4/25)
Me and Elisa bought her a small tiny mango cake ( I forgotten the real name, but it look delicious) and went to her coll to fetch her and I had bought her something Bodyshop which cost me some blood to flow out, haha, what to do? She did buy me something from there as well ma... then we go to Papa Pizza.. coz at 1st I was thinking not to go at night as I got a date with J, haha... agian! Heavy you , Light friends...

But later of the nite, J says dun mind joining in for Zhu B'day.. gaga
I bought another birthday cake from Ritz for her, with J... I still remember the way you jumped to touch the pillar, you really look like a angel, no doubt you are the angel! and we have the dinner at Faces... the faces.....

I'm officially broke..I nvr have extra money ever since my birthday... haiz..

Tonite 26, I had KFC for dinner or supper... when I go home, I heard form aunty that the family now is having financial problems, haiz... I'm so blank.. I dunno what should I do? I dun even know what can I do... useless...

Love n Bread..? which one? can I have both?

Fitness Causes Trouble

A new fresh happening.. I feel bad about it..

I woke up in the nice cooling morning.. being woke up by noise of guests in my house.. celaka, y u guys so loud when going to ppl house?

Elisa called me up, going to ask somethign.. but before she ask.. there are a call from FF..haha.. Final Fantasy? duh~ Fitness First.. they were prospecting and have a sales call on me, well.. it is just another fitness center trying to have more business... like what the CF did to me..

well well well.. those are not important things... the most important one was, U WERE NOT HAPPY after I tell you that FF hurts me by saying me overweight in a joking way.. I dunno u will be so angry about FF.. I dunno how to console u.. I upset that why I need to tell you n mess ur mood?

I know u care bout how ur friends feel, but it really doesn't matter.. we understand the business tactic.. is ok de.. dun blame urself too much..

Im stupid n Im sorry..

19/4

Haiya.. I ajak you to go PC fair, it was a threat of me to see u more often but too bad u dun wan to go..so what am I going to do leh?

19 April morning, was wake by ur called in the morning, u laughed over the phone that say I'm a pig.. sleep till so late.. but what to do? I'm so happy when you say that I'm a pig.. ish ish .. I so jin gak~ u ask me to go for a movie with u, no doubt u got my date instantly.. We are going to watch Forbidden Kingdom..

I wanna book the ticket online but tak dapat... nvm nvm.. as long as you asked me out.. haha more than enough for every bad things to turn marvelous...haha

But in the afternoon I still fetch my best friend of my life, Zhu( Piggie) to go PC fair as piggy is so rich and wanna dump some money to get a laptop so what to do leh? ma accompany her to go lo.... at PC Fair there, lots ppl misunderstood that me n piggie are couple (nah!! my heart are all you you you and only you)... Me n piggie was like a shamelss couple in PC Fair la.. Perasan sangat, we hold hands, hugging.. hahaha..

I was late to meet you at QB, I wanna ask Piggy to join us for movie de and I got the intention de bring her along but she refuse to join us ( more or less she know what am I thinking, she was so wonderful) and she insist to go on shopping alone in QB... I really dunno that we will be spending so long times together n I ignored piggy.. omg!!!

4.45pm de movie, 5pm only I arrived at QB, what the heck?? I was so ashame n deeply sorry for keeping you waiting for me, the useless... but infact, I m so dizzy when I first saw u, and u smiled to me.. so damn Angelic.. haha... I already over high..

After the movie, I dropped the ticket.. OMFG.. It made me having uncomplete collection of movie that I watched with u... sad sad sad.. I collect them all.. n just just because of it, semua dah tak sempurna lagi.. I bowed down n tried to get the ticket back, n unfotunately it drops so deeply underneath the chair, n I realise that I look like a retarted, a nut when I tried to get the ticket.. Im always nut.. peanut.. u looked at me confusely, so I gived up the ticket.. so paiseh la man.. :(

After the movie...
You and me were so hungry and try to grab somethign to eat, n after a few turning in the mall, we decided to go in to Fish Market for dinner... haha..half way of our dinner, there was a uninvited guest - Cockroach, that is the time I found that we are share the similarity that is WE BOTH PHOBIA BOUT COCKROACH!! .. and upon settlign our bill we do some cute complain and we manage to get 10% discount... which mean we need no to pay for government n service taxes.. haha

here are the artistic stuff we done after meal:

Haiz.. How cute we are....

after the meal, we walked around and starts commenting the model search in QB ( we shared a same cup of properity water form MCD ) , at there I saw a few ex-schoolmates was participating haha.. hopefully they won something..and i met Joshy... he say u good looking wo.. haha I oso met Cheow Yan which is my 1st crush in my life.. haha..

I do keep on smsing with Piggie... I m damn guilty

8.45pm.. raining out there and u rushed to ur friends house to helped on some sketching things.. I rush to find Piggy when she saw me, her tears drops.. She say she not blaming me, but she felt very kelian.. omg omg omg, what have I done? I console her at Sushi King, pass by looking at me like Im the bully la.. but in face I bullied her jor..

then later, I go eat with piggy and luckily piggy has forgive me.. love her lots la

19 of April

I'm so happy and guilty..

just because

Heavy u, light friend..

The Forbidden

haha.. You are the forbidden one.. later you date me out for movie this time will be watching the "Forbidden City" in chinese which is the King Of Kung Fu.. hasha..

This week I been having a roller coaster mood, well.. can I blame on fully on that?
A second I am happy because we were communicating, smsing.. blah blah blah...
A second later Im worried..
A second later Im sad...
A second later Im angry..
A second later Im happy..
A second later Im cheerful..
A second later Im crying...
A second later I realise that you are really important for me...

well.. now Im damn happy.. as later we will going for movie again..
see you later..

ANNOUNCEMENT

my blog temporary is updating post that I created in the past but havent post up.. going to finish it n post up.. n it is quite messy at this moment.. please be patient..

haha.. wondering who will read this?

p/s no comment on this post pls..

Mixture

Well well well.. yesterday was a good day, nice day for me.. We are going for movie in less than 24 hours again, after the 3 kingdoms.. this time was the long time waited movie of urs " Ah Long" which I watched it, I think month ago.. I got no complain bout it, the feeling of watching it again is better than the 1st time.. Maybe u are beside me, who knows? haha

I was in my house- Gurney at 2.45 and u arrived at 3.45.. I think... having a sweet waiting time.. well, incase of too bored waiting.. I always sitting at my so called wife kiosk talking non-sense with her.. haha.. but while waiting u, I suddenly get very nervous and got the feeling like falling into a black hole. I can hardly smile, tho my wife keep on cheering me.. I got the feeling like Im being abandon in the same mall again.. it was really a hard time n it shadowed me for a long long time... but thanks for whatever, u actually appear...

I swear, at that moment.. I feel like wanna jump upside down, dashing to u.. (self-control conquered me) lucky

You said you are hungry, and wanna have lunch... but I already starv until no feeling ad.. inside all air, so I m contented with air, and not hungry jor.. hahaha... but nvm, you are always the main character, so after a long long dicussion of eating what, we gone to Zing Do..

In Zing Do..
You said you wanna order 2 things but u cant finish all, so I ask u to order what u want, and I share with u lo.. haha.. the reason is, 1st I dunno what to eat, coz it is my 1st time there .. 2nd, can let u eat my saliva =.= haha
3rd, U really seems hungy n I filled up with air n lost my appetide.. Ends up, we ordered Bimbimbap chicken ( izzit spell that way? who cares? ) and a korean fried tang hun ( not bad wo!) 1 green tea, 1 iced lemon tea.. I paid the bill, as Im the one who go n order at the counter, which need to pay before being serve... You gave me the belated birthday present before the food were on the table, haha..It was a Laconic Necklace.. haha, Im loving it so much, it is so nice, neverless it is from you..

you have ur whole bimbimbap chicken and the half fried tang hun.. I have only half of the tang hun.. T.T

before we go for the Ah Long... you bought waffle.. 2 waffle.. tuna and peanut butter ( or kaya ? I not really remember) then 1 bottle of mineral water.. who said you cannot eat much? who said after you ate lots then will puke? you eat more than I can imagine... haha..

In the cinema..
sitting watching the movie like normal la.. but got 1 happening on my own that I shall remember.. my jeans was stuck with the chair.. It was too loose until it fall off till my lap.. I grumble " fuck".. I was so scared that my jean will just drop off.. haha.. u seems like glued on the movie.. luckily... and so lucky that I won the fight between the jeans n the chair... sigh.. well, I peep u more than 5 times in the cinema... n you had finished the waffles.. omg.. the movie is hilarious, and it is more enjoyable than the 1st time I watched it..

after Ah Long..
we loiter around in the Gurney.. chit chat abit.. yaya.. look for sunglasses.. as mine was broken, n it is extremely important for me while driving.. nothing suits me, nor at Queensbay or Gurney... we go around those outfit outlets...

At Soda
I know u liked the white cargo, but I cant afford it yet.. hahaha.. can't help much

At Phenomenal..
you are trying outfit in the fitting room, a singlet, a long sleeves, a pair of white long pants ( I dunno it is a cargo or jean or what?).. I noticed that u like white long pants alots.. while u are trying those outfits.. I was in another fitting room trying to peep wear the necklace that you gave it to me.. poor me... no skills and I cant find a way to wear it.. u noticed it.. but we act like nothing.. I "am dui"...

then you go Versace talk with ur friend.. haha.. I m bored inside there.. those prices are far beyond my ability.. haha.. then I sneak out to the wishing well (the real name is money sucker well) haha.. I dropped my last syilling which is a 5cent, my wish cheap hor? haha seeing it roll n roll before dropped into the big hole..
the wish was repeated, it is the same with my second wish on my birthday..

After you finished talking with ur friend, I said I wanna go toilet and nonsense wear the necklace, you say you wanna see it as well, and you volunteer to wear it for me.. hahaha.. my heart was flying all around the world for 100times in a second.. haha.. it was the BEST OF THE BEST MOMENT of my life, when u actually tied up the necklace around my neck in the public, not so public.. hang fuk nia man.. SS..

well, your friend was here and ready to take u to buffet.. I know and you know what is in his mind la.. haha.. but since u promised him that you will go.. haha.. I should not stop you, and I got no rights to stop you.. I remember :

You: Wanna join the buffet or not?
Hory: Dun wan la, later become spot light ( actually I wanted to go but no money and so paiseh) then he beh syoik and kill me with knife..
You: Wont de la..
Hory : How if he thinks that we are couple?
You: BETTER STILL

OMFG.. this should be quoted in the rest of my life.. hahaha..

The eventho I dint follow you to the buffet.. but I sent you out till the friend car.. waving a goodbye to you, then seeing you go in the car.. and go.. I wanna shout out loud " JUST STAY HERE!!!" but I dint.. well, a moment that from heaven falling to the hell, 19 floor below.. I really dun like or even hate it everytime you talk bout him, good or bad I oso dun like, I really hate seeing you going into his car.. even worst when Im the one who sent u to his car.. fuck my self gao gao

Movie n Makan in my account.. haha.. money leakage are more serious jor.. nvm la.. it is worth more than worth..

after sent u off, I back to wife kioks n talk with her till she finished the work at 10 and fetch her home lo.. I talked bout you alot infront of her.. I know she dun like it, but I got no others to tell.. sorry la my wife..

After we reach her home.. I really feel like Im just a stranger to anyone in this world.. I talked until I sob in the car.. she got shocked abit la, but she reacted quite fast.. I felt like Im a stranger to everyone, my family, friends or even you.. with or without me, the world of you guys still having on the same track, I felt very bad that actually my appearace counldn't make a different, not even a small one.. I really feel bad... I just need someone shoulder which I can feel that Im important at once..

You called twice while Im sobbing.. you will not know de.. haha, coz I act so well.. haha.. you wanted me to join (or can said as safe) you to clubs but Im broke ever since my birthday.. n I dun like clubbing.. I cant make it.. Im sorry.. I feel even worst when I know that you are going to club... I went home.. reach home at the hour of 11 something..

Tired n hungry.. Eat only half of the tang hun in the whole day... no breakfast no lunch no dinner, just half plate of tang hun.. so I cooked a packet of "HarMee", my recent favourite.. haha.. then back to my bed, after a while of online..

Im glad that you actually called back when you see my missed call...
Im happy that you gave me a present...
Im happy that you have become more real in my life...
Im happy that you volunteer to wear the necklace for me, I think I will nvr take it down...
Im treasuring you as much as the king treasuring the crown, without the crown, the king is nothing...

Yesterday, 12 April 2008.. A memorable day in my life.. yet it is quite a sad day for me for thinking back those very bad things and sob infornt of wife..

I Think this mixture of mood proove that Im having Dissociative Idendity Disoders

Happy Expectation

will going for another movie later.. Ah Long Pte Ltd another time!!! I got no grumble or tak syoik watching it again, but in fact I am more happy and have more excitement!! I just cant wait to go for the movie.. haha

Just saw you yesterday night, later I am going to see you again! haha... Part of my huge fantasy come true... tho is a small piece of it, I m glad that it actually come real.. I dun expect more to happen coz I know the level...but yet, let me enjoy this moment to the max..

Sign off with smiles..
I love April, and you are the apple in my eyes

Hory

I Love April

I just back from the movie - 3 kingdoms.. haha.. I am so happy...

We are friends now, no longer stranger.... Im hoping for more but I know it merely can be realistic...

Talked alots in car.. ur relationship, ur exes, u perspective and others.. I wish not to drop u home so early

haha..

Keep on telling myself cannot show it obvious..

I have a really meaningful evening..

Thanks for everything...cant wait for tmrw movie again with you..

Report on 4/8

I know I know.. I still cant get over it.. Im still in birthday mood...

Seoul Garden at 7/4
with my class buddies : Beh Chuin Hong.. Estella Phing... Sherene Ang...
Thanks for treating me that so called expensive birthday meal wo.. haha..

8/4.. My Birthday!! My Birthday!! haha..
I knew Etta wanna do something for me.. I just diam diam n wait for the so called surprise that she wanna gave to me.. haha.. i already ready for what is coming.. haha..

Espected, she bought a banana cake for me, and NEARLY everyone in class sing da Birthday song for me..haha..the cake was sliced in to many pieces n distributed jor... haha... thanks Etta... I really aprreciate it~ :)

In the same day, Me n Sherene n Hoay Phing skipped class, and we heading to Queens Bay Mall.. hahaha.. Birthday got all the exception la K? even not in birthday, I oso got myself exception de lo haha... We have our lunch at Sakea Sushi.. haha.. I spend money like a rich ass.. haiz haiz.. who ask me to have a Birthday?

At Night... haha... wanna go Sushi King as they got the members promotion haha.. Rm 2 for every plate on the belt wo.. of course I wanna go la.. haha.. so here we go with Elisa n Ven Xiang.. but but but the Sushi was so crowded with all those cheap chaser.. included us.. until We cant wait any longer n proceeded to the BBQ chicken to have my last meal on my birthday.. hahaha.. I love my 19 Birthday the most.. haha

9/4.. birthday over le.. but Im so in Birtday mood.. haha.. cannot a? Due to yesterday we couldn't make it for Sushi King Cheap Sales... We go for second time.. haha who ask that we are Penang ppl, who like cheap cheap de food leh? hahaha.. I got it, Sushi King.. hahahaha

Im so dump happy

I m very dump dump happy.. just 10 minutes before.. we talked on phone more than 2 hours.. hahaha.. just because of that, Im so dump happy.. hahaha

just like that

habislah report saya

Terimah Kasi

Happy Birthday

OMG~ IM OFFICIALLY 19

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60 seconds later, Im officially 19..

Im counting down it in this blog...

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2 minutes later, is my birthday..

Who am I for this long 18 years?
now Im going to be 19? what am I going to be?
without me, any difference in this world?
without me? then who are u?

lots of question mark appears 2 minutes before my birthday...

1/2 hour

Half an hour later will be my 19 years old birthday... ImOLD still young... haha.. yet before the clock strike on 12.. Im still 18.. 18 POK POK CHUI




Preparing for my last 18 wishes and prayer.. Hopelly ALL will turn out in real life ...

I should live my life to the MAX at the age of 19.. it is the last year of my teenage life.. haha..

still 18 .. still 18.. still 18... still 18.. Im still POK POK CHUI.. pok pok chui~

When U and You

Thanks for appearing in my life..
Thanks for attending my birthday..
Thanks for everything...especially you walked to buy me the stone hard ice-cream cake..
There is a moment which I feel like wanna hug u tight and tell you, you need no to do so, you habitated in my heart long ago...

You are not my lover...
Im still a stranger...

Thanks you for making U and you meeting a circle success..

Treasuring u as much as the king treasure his crown..